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My Old Ticks And Habbits
posted at 10:43 pm on 05-17-2008
This is not new for any of you who have known me in the past. First off, nose picking. I blame Rocko’s Modern Life for that. But up it took 7 years to stop. Then SNORT! I had no control over my post-nasial drip. Like in 3rd grade it was like in and out! in and out! constantly. so fuckin annoying. anyway, my friends and I make fun of that now. Once again, like the nose picking, i no longer do it. then comes "U SILLY GOOSE" in my gay voice. It came last year and i litterally could not control it. it lasted a bit and faded away. Then overall my in ablility to get the nocian that people want me TO SHUT THE FUCK UP! thats gone (mostly). And last, blinking. I dont know where it came from, but i had no control. it was not my fault. and yet it annoyed the fuck out of my 5th graders. it went that very year too. So I have come a long way and can function correctly in society.
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My Luv Life
posted at 10:42 pm on 05-17-2008
Through The Eyes Of An Autistic One: My Luv Life
Notice how nothing is written down XD. yes well it would come to no suprise to u that an Aspie such as I would not be in a releationship. Thats cause of my gang raped, bitch slapped rep. how people still think of me even though im not like that. but hey, i really dont care. its just school. if something comes ill take it. but for now IM SINGLE!!!! well, it would be hard cause id have to ask the girlfriend how to be a boyfriend. yes, this is one of the many social skills i have to learn. though i can function, the concept of love has evaded my mind. unlike normals, i have to learn this. it kinda sucks, know u have to LEARN how to act. like litteraly learn. not develope by being around the people who do it. like i have to learn from people kinda one on one u know? so im not having kids (but i doubt ill get a wife) cause i do not want them to suffer on this cold hearted place we call Earth. like 1 in 150 who r born like me, we are on the wrong planet...
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Changes
posted at 10:42 pm on 05-17-2008
Back in 7th grade around this time, I felt it was time to change. I obiously was still socially disfunctional and still had to LEARN how to act. For Normals it comes natural. So I tried to get into music and try wearing cooler clothes. Only one of those things came true. Music. So people were still hating me with my ticks and such. So, I just gave up and said Summer 07 BITCH! Yep that was the magical time. I grew out my hair and changed. How I changed I dont know. Just did. The hair was kinda on accident. I like originally wanted curly hair like my cousin James and my father. But as long as it wasnt short. So my hair comes, my personality changes, and best of all I DONT WEAR HAMYDOWNS!!! (or however the hell you spell it). Anyway, I changed a lot. But from time to time I still see my social disorders bleed through. That being not able to understand jokes and metaphors and I’m overall not funny at all. Kinda sucks you know? Sorta being left in the dark. But hopefully in the future I will be fully fine. For now, people ask me why I was bullied and even people who were on my team say I changed. I am able to hang out with the less popular and annoying people just because I was one myself and can endure it. So thats my story on changing.
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Sports
posted at 10:41 pm on 05-17-2008
Mhm. Well for those of you who have known me in years before 2007 and 2008, you obiously know that I am not one to be athletic. Know I’ve recently discovered or been able to explain why this happens. Its panic. And for me, panic is not good. I cannot focus, function, or do anything right. The reason is all the running and twisting and turning. now I have a friend whos an Aspie and him and his AUTISTIC sister play basketball and they’re fine. Thats because it doesnt create panic for them. Even though Aspies are known to be like one another, they still have differences. So really, thats why I love games so much. Cause I cant play sports. Thats why I hope that they wont re-instate the draft when I’m 18 if we’re still in Iraq. Thats cause I cannot function correctly in pressured situations like that. So really, its not that I dont want to play sports, its just that I cant.
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Music And Me
posted at 10:41 pm on 05-17-2008
Hello there all! Im back with another blog entrie that nobody is prolly gonna read. But for all u aspies like me please do. Well I have always been behind and have finally caught up with reality. Looking back 1 year before now i saw mild pain but change. It was my re-discovery in my love for music. Queen. I remember hearing it commonly (most likely from here Queen’s greatest hits TAPE) in the car. Same wit the Police. But that was for later. Either way, it was QUEEN! I then realized I wanted to play the piano. so that waited till July. In the meantime i got Guitar Hero 2 and by now im rockin it out on expert and getting lots of 5*ing alot of songs. Anyway, i was introduced to iron maiden and the police. Through Rock Band I was introduced to Metallica, Rush, Coheed and Cambria, and best of all BLUE OYSTER CULT! I mean Queen, BOC, and Iron Maiden are my big 3. Coheed and Cambria, well Ive only heard one of there songs. and thats Welcome Home which is AWSOME! Anyway, when i was young i wanted to play the drums and always saw VH1 before I went to my afternoon class in pre-school. So back then, Fastball was my band. yes i had a poster and a TAPE (it was 97) and LOVED one song the most, "The Way". Well, i was too young to play the drums (and we were piss poor at the time) so i had to wait. But then in 1st grade, all hell broke loose. My music teacher ruined my love for music. So i may have been a drummer if it wasnt for my fuckin music teacher. But now im back.
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Introduction
posted at 10:40 pm on 05-17-2008
HELLO EVERYONE! Names Ryan. I have Asperger's Syndrome. This is a basic overview on my life. I dislike hate groups like nazis. I cant STAND descrimination in any way, shape, or form, and 2. Cause they hate the mentally disabled (which are autistics and aspies) and killed off a bunch of mentally disabled people during WW2. So I LOOOOOOOOOOOVE video games and yet people think i skate. THe reason I have such a lust for technology is that Aspies like me get into what they are introduced to. And on December 25, 1998, that happened to be an SNES (i wanted an N64 but we were PISS POOR). I was once a short fat idiot who annoyed the HELL out of everyone. Of course I was bullied the FUCK out of, but that allllll changed during last summer. I was fed up wit all the BULLSHIT and stopped denying that there was nothing wrong with me. So I started over, Grew out my hair and came into the world as the Normals know it. I only have mild problems with people off team who havent had a full conversation with me and deny the fact that ive changed (Hannah F. Matt P.) So please read my blog entries and I assure u, more shall come.
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