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In A New World and Trying To Cope
posted at 12:18 pm on 02-04-2009
Two and a half weeks ago, I moved from NC to Oregon. I came here to be near my aspie BF. It's been a mixture of an adventure and a very scary experience.
Everything has been unfamiliar, which is not good for an aspie. Transitions, new environments, etc. flip most of us out. I am no exception.
A week ago, I got a new apartment and I've created a little space for my creative projects, like writing and drawing, and for my computer. I stay here because I feel safe. I made it a small space to feel even safer.
On top of all this, I decided to try meeting neurotypicals. I joined a writer's group and I'm going to go to a second writer's group tonight. I'm nervous about the work I submitted to the group for critique. I'm wondering if I'm doing too much to try to meet new people.
The AS group here has about 20 members and they have three different meetings during each month. But, the next meeting isn't until next Monday. I really want to feel myself wrapped around a program. All my friends in NC were aspies and I met them through my support group, including my BF.
I'm craving safety and familiarity. The new apt is helping. My BF has had some problems that concern me. We went to an asperger's and anxiety specialist last week and we have another appt today but I'm worried he won't come with me. I can't see the therapist without my BF because it's covered by his insurance. The therapist does not take medicare.
I'm wrecked with anxiety and taking more klonopin than usual. I need help. I need counseling and a support group and it is hard to wait to get what I need. I desperately cling to chat forums lately. I'm praying this therapist will talk to me today, even if BF doesn't come.
I'm having issues with over and understimulation in my relationship with BF. It's physical and emotional.
I need support. I need to hear from people who have been through similar things to find out how they cope.
Thanks.
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