Post 3935248 - Parent said "losing his daughter" (Parent said "losing his daughter")

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[quote="techn0teen"]I was unfortunate to be a male born with the wrong genitalia. My dad said he is "losing his daughter". When I hear this, I get infuriated. I was a shell my entire childhood. I never said anything. I never expressed anything. I never smiled. He is not losing a daughter, he is losing a forced act I put on. It hurts me so much to think he only loved my act. He never loved me for me. He would rather have a shell of a child than a happy, prosperous son.

My family refuses to call me by my male name or the right pronouns. They claim it is because the younger children will not understand and it will create conflict with their stepfather and the court system (I basically live with my dad's fiance and her kids during the summer). I visibly cringe when my old name is used. It only brings up bad memories of all the physical and psychological pain I went through in the past. It makes my gender dysphoria worse.

It gets to the point I want to break total contact with everyone in my family. I never want to see anyone in my family again. I even find it hard to talk to those who in my family who were accepting of me. I just want a fresh start. I hide this hurt and anger. I feel betrayed, and I hide it so well that I was largely unaware of it until now. I am starting to show it in subtle ways. I am getting more snappish than before.

I am usually a very reasonable and kind person, but I am turning into something I don't like and will do everything in my willpower to not become. How do I get rid of this anger?[/quote]

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