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| Sweetleaf |
Posted: Mon Jun 04, 2012 12:11 pm Post subject: |
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| archraphael wrote: | didnt feel like posting a new thread but since i got discharged i literally can't function can't drive a car cause of the med
seroquel iwas put on for "thought disorder" i feel like my "condition" is deteriorating and its getting really sad to watch my mind going like this.. :s
atually i feel better withou the drug i was extremely manic and psycho last night and felt 100x better with the full moon mania and voices going on than dizzy and shaking all the time on this stupid drugs :s |
Well I don't know your full situation, but is there any way you could get off that medication or try something else. I just can't see why a doctor would want to prescribe something to someone that makes them feel worse...and I personally would not be able to keep taking a drug if it made me feel terrible well at least not willingly... |
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| archraphael |
Posted: Mon Jun 04, 2012 12:04 pm Post subject: |
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didnt feel like posting a new thread but since i got discharged i literally can't function can't drive a car cause of the med
seroquel iwas put on for "thought disorder" i feel like my "condition" is deteriorating and its getting really sad to watch my mind going like this.. :s
atually i feel better withou the drug i was extremely manic and psycho last night and felt 100x better with the full moon mania and voices going on than dizzy and shaking all the time on this stupid drugs :s |
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| Sweetleaf |
Posted: Mon Jun 04, 2012 9:59 am Post subject: |
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| namaste wrote: | | Sweetleaf wrote: |
Well lets just put it this way growing up it wasn't the abnormal people doing the bullying, it was the normal people. So I don't feel safe around them...they can be pretty nasty to people who don't fit in. Also they don't typically entertain me and I don't really have much in common with them. |
ya i agree they bully and they distance you.
but if they were good with me i would like to associate with them |
Yeah I am done crawling back for more of the same crap essentially...if someone is good to me I will probably be good to them, however I get along better with other unusual and/or mental people so it makes sense when it comes to friends that is what I'd prefer. |
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| namaste |
Posted: Mon Jun 04, 2012 3:54 am Post subject: |
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| archraphael wrote: |
true. i fit in the most with my closest friend(s) and other (mental) patients in the hospital... "normal" people activities/gatherings always made me feel more depressed/distorted..
but beiong around people i 'click' with make me feel so happy inside |
i can't even figure out people with mental problems nowadays
they are obsessed with peculiar things
like seeing ghost, supernatural experiences
whereas i noticed normal people consider this bogus
i live in a world which i am trying hard to balance between normal and abnormal
i guess i don't fit in both kinds of people
normal people avoid me and i try to avoid weird people |
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| namaste |
Posted: Mon Jun 04, 2012 3:51 am Post subject: |
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| Sweetleaf wrote: |
Well lets just put it this way growing up it wasn't the abnormal people doing the bullying, it was the normal people. So I don't feel safe around them...they can be pretty nasty to people who don't fit in. Also they don't typically entertain me and I don't really have much in common with them. |
ya i agree they bully and they distance you.
but if they were good with me i would like to associate with them |
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| Sweetleaf |
Posted: Sun Jun 03, 2012 1:37 pm Post subject: |
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| archraphael wrote: | | Sweetleaf wrote: | | namaste wrote: | @sweetleaf
why u don't want to associate with normal people
i would love to associate with them
provided they entertain me.  |
Well lets just put it this way growing up it wasn't the abnormal people doing the bullying, it was the normal people. So I don't feel safe around them...they can be pretty nasty to people who don't fit in. Also they don't typically entertain me and I don't really have much in common with them. |
true. i fit in the most with my closest friend(s) and other (mental) patients in the hospital... "normal" people activities/gatherings always made me feel more depressed/distorted..
but beiong around people i 'click' with make me feel so happy inside |
I'd rather have a terrible life with people in it I can relate to, than have a great life and have to deal with complete lonliness and putting on a fake smile around fake people. |
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| archraphael |
Posted: Sun Jun 03, 2012 1:16 pm Post subject: |
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| Sweetleaf wrote: | | namaste wrote: | @sweetleaf
why u don't want to associate with normal people
i would love to associate with them
provided they entertain me.  |
Well lets just put it this way growing up it wasn't the abnormal people doing the bullying, it was the normal people. So I don't feel safe around them...they can be pretty nasty to people who don't fit in. Also they don't typically entertain me and I don't really have much in common with them. |
true. i fit in the most with my closest friend(s) and other (mental) patients in the hospital... "normal" people activities/gatherings always made me feel more depressed/distorted..
but beiong around people i 'click' with make me feel so happy inside |
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| Sweetleaf |
Posted: Sun Jun 03, 2012 12:49 pm Post subject: |
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| namaste wrote: | @sweetleaf
why u don't want to associate with normal people
i would love to associate with them
provided they entertain me.  |
Well lets just put it this way growing up it wasn't the abnormal people doing the bullying, it was the normal people. So I don't feel safe around them...they can be pretty nasty to people who don't fit in. Also they don't typically entertain me and I don't really have much in common with them. |
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| namaste |
Posted: Sun Jun 03, 2012 12:44 pm Post subject: |
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@sweetleaf
why u don't want to associate with normal people
i would love to associate with them
provided they entertain me.  |
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| ShamanicExperience2 |
Posted: Sat Jun 02, 2012 3:23 pm Post subject: |
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hahaha i know what u mean, sometimes it feels like thats exactly where ill end up and sometimes i wonder whos gonna put me there, someone else, or myself just to get away from everyone and everything.
Ive been taken to a mental hospital once for a 3 day evalutaion and it wasnt that bad (then again i was a minor at the time) that concluded i was chronic paranoid schizophrenic cuz i argued with my parents and im mexican, thus i was somehoe having delusional thoughts (that i shouldnt get yelled at and hit for no good reason were my thoughts, real delusional huh?)
and well they let me go after the mandatory 3 days cuz they had nothing on me for real......but that place sucked as far as help goes....even the orderlys told me to just act normal, just pretend ur getting better cuz its worse if u actually needed help cuz they didnt do much for that. I feel like id go to one yet id feel i may go more insane within one :/ |
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| Sweetleaf |
Posted: Sat Jun 02, 2012 11:43 am Post subject: |
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| namaste wrote: | | archraphael wrote: | i just got out of the mental hospital for really bad depression and psychosis
i tell you what they treated me like sh** in there
1 thing it made me is made me more aggressive
but more mentally disorganized
seroquel has got me dizzy 24/7 now
i dont know how else to stop the psychosis because my "asperger" diagnosis any mentioning of psychotic symptoms are completely ignored. im starting to think i have schizo-affective caused by prema birth/dev delays not asperger..
but you know compared to me, or us, there are people in there A LOT worse off
its no place for sensitive people
we need time alone and all the chaos in that f**** place still has my head spinning |
its quite scary to hear that.
i have been trying to control myself.
but i am weird and different
i noticed that i laugh at seemingly any silly joke
whereas others don't
i have weird people for company and normal people won't associate with me
this weirder people are really really out of the box and insane
i don't have any choice but to tolerate them
everything is headed towards dead end |
I tend to always feel paranoid and try to control myself in public so I don't seem 'too' mental or anything, but it seems to just get more and more difficult. I also have weird people for friends, but part of it is me not wanting to associate with 'normal' people just as they don't want to associate with me. To me things feel as though they are headed towards a dead end as well...so I am tempted to just jump on the crazy train(yes like the Ozzy song) I mean what else is left at this point? |
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| thedaywalker |
Posted: Sat Jun 02, 2012 5:13 am Post subject: |
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| i always thought that insanity was like a explotion into the realm of possibilities, far from a dead end. |
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| archraphael |
Posted: Fri Jun 01, 2012 6:50 pm Post subject: |
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| namaste wrote: | | archraphael wrote: | i just got out of the mental hospital for really bad depression and psychosis
i tell you what they treated me like sh** in there
1 thing it made me is made me more aggressive
but more mentally disorganized
seroquel has got me dizzy 24/7 now
i dont know how else to stop the psychosis because my "asperger" diagnosis any mentioning of psychotic symptoms are completely ignored. im starting to think i have schizo-affective caused by prema birth/dev delays not asperger..
but you know compared to me, or us, there are people in there A LOT worse off
its no place for sensitive people
we need time alone and all the chaos in that f**** place still has my head spinning |
its quite scary to hear that.
i have been trying to control myself.
but i am weird and different
i noticed that i laugh at seemingly any silly joke
whereas others don't
i have weird people for company and normal people won't associate with me
this weirder people are really really out of the box and insane
i don't have any choice but to tolerate them
everything is headed towards dead end |
youll be fine
what really had me cracking was delusional thinking that was leading to self-hating extreme depression to suicidal ideations...
if my family knew what i know.... extremeely up... people just write me off as crazy and delusional to cover up their masonic sacrificial secret society bs going on at my uni...
they have a lawsuit coming their way.. |
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| namaste |
Posted: Fri Jun 01, 2012 1:25 pm Post subject: |
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| archraphael wrote: | i just got out of the mental hospital for really bad depression and psychosis
i tell you what they treated me like sh** in there
1 thing it made me is made me more aggressive
but more mentally disorganized
seroquel has got me dizzy 24/7 now
i dont know how else to stop the psychosis because my "asperger" diagnosis any mentioning of psychotic symptoms are completely ignored. im starting to think i have schizo-affective caused by prema birth/dev delays not asperger..
but you know compared to me, or us, there are people in there A LOT worse off
its no place for sensitive people
we need time alone and all the chaos in that f**** place still has my head spinning |
its quite scary to hear that.
i have been trying to control myself.
but i am weird and different
i noticed that i laugh at seemingly any silly joke
whereas others don't
i have weird people for company and normal people won't associate with me
this weirder people are really really out of the box and insane
i don't have any choice but to tolerate them
everything is headed towards dead end |
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| thedaywalker |
Posted: Fri Jun 01, 2012 11:53 am Post subject: |
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| i don't think i will no'r do i think you should i hope that something big will hapen soon and somehow people with aspergers syndrome will be incorporated into the new world. might sound foolish to think something big will happen but if you look at all the movement going on in the world it seams strange to think nothing will happen. |
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