Sorry everyone, need a rant.
I'm preparing for my second set of knee surgery, as I've problems with the structure of my legs and as a result my knees often dislocate. During physiotherapy my therapist has identified I've pretty bad problems with a lack of strength in my back, hips, and legs. I've been working so damn hard to get to be strong enough for surgery but it's impossible! I'm sick and tired of physiotherapy and dislocations, this has been going on for over 6 years now and they could have done something to help me a long time ago but they were putting off surgery until the next dislocation, and then the next, and then the next until my body's so messed up I can't bloody do anything any more. I've got problems with all my joints now as a result of being on crutches for years and I've gotten into such a mess.
I suppose the main issue really is my frustration with my lack of ability to do the most basic of physio exercises, and of late I keep falling over and can't get around much.
I just want to be able to get better real soon and fulfill my dreams of hiking as a hobby, but that seems so far away.