I did very well today! I snacked delicious strawberries and the hardest part, the stores, were only slightly problematic. I just said to myself ''that stuff only makes you miserable and it's not so good anyway''. Instead, I bought fruit/veggies as snacks. It feels good having done well and having broken the habit. Now I need to maintain it for a couple of days to get a better 'routine'. Posting this motivates.
It's sometimes that I either get addicted to certain foods, which I hate, as it makes my body scream for it and I hate having such strong cravings. I usually manage to cut that off eventually as it's really frustrating and annoying. Then there're periods -such as this- where I have strange compulsive behaviour but it doesn't feel like the ''addiction'' (if it is one) but more like a compulsion. Really strange. What snufkin mentions definitely plays a part; if I'm over-stimulated I tend to overeat. Not sure why, but putting something in my stomach/body, be it food or water, makes me feel 'myself' better again, as if it reconnects me to myself.
@ zer0netgain: very good point that I need to remember. I realised it myself this week, that food doesn't help anything at all, whatever is causing it: it doesn't go away by giving into it and it doesn't actually make me happy.
I need to keep thinking of this thread and perhaps keep posting for a while to get myself re-wired. It feels very good and rewarding to have done so well though, and to have only gotten myself nice and healthy foods for tomorrow. (STRAWBERRIES!)
lostonearth35 wrote:
Lately I've been hitting the sweet snacks more and more. At least you're not overweight, I've been fat for almost my whole life. Sometimes I try buying fresh fruits and vegetables but I only eat them the first day or so and then not touch them and they go bad. I wasn't raised on junk as a kid, my mother always made sure my brother and I had healthy things to eat but he didn't put on weight, he was skinny no matter what and was allowed to eat whatever he wanted and I wasn't and it felt awful. Now I'm 40 and it's going to be harder than ever to get to a healthy weight and back in my 20's I had to really push myself by walking for hours every day and drinking gallons of water until I was ready to barf. I actually was able to lose a lot of weight but I still wasn't happy because my skin was just hanging off me and I was told it would shrink back but it wouldn't, and I was in real terror that every bit of food was going to make me fat again. Eventually I got tired of it and now I'm almost back to looking like a lactating sow.
It saddens me when people talk and feel about their body like that
Isn't there any way to motivate you? Do you move or work out? It's not just weight loss that's good for you, but also the endorfine and the muscle growth. It makes your endurance better and you become stronger, which is in its own way rewarding. I just hope you manage to find a way to feel better in your skin, you deserve it.
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