I am self-diagnosed with Cyclothymia. Over the last few weeks I have started experimenting with binaural beats, mostly with alpha and theta, but also with delta and beta. I have found that listening to alpha frequencies makes me feel really good and energized, but they cause me to go crazy and manic over time when I'm under stress. I used to sleep a lot more during the day, but now I'm always energized and don't need as much sleep. I'm a college student and because I'm socially isolated, I don't like college, final exams are coming up, and I'm kind of unhappy with my life in general I have been getting kind of stressed out. I'm already crazy when I'm not under stress, but the stress adds to the craziness. I have been feeling more easily irritated lately. I just bought a surgically sharp grim reaper style long-handled scythe this week and I have been keeping it secret from my parents. I'm kind of worried that my parents will find out that I have it and think badly of me and make me go see a phsychiatrist or put me in a mental hospital. I was never planning on killing anyone with it. I just bought it because I'm paranoid that someone will try to attack me, it's good for self-defense, and if someone irritates me contemplating decapitating them with the scythe kind of cheers me up, although I would never actually be able to do it and I wouldn't want to take the risk. Despite the negative effects of the alpha beats they make me feel better overall. I don't want to stop using them, I feel better than I have in years. But I'm still afraid that my parents will discover my scythe and my other weapons that I've kept hidden from them. I'm also afraid that they'll start to notice that my behaviors are crazy and not just ordinary Aspie behaviors. Does anyone have any advice about how I should handle this? I would replace the alpha beats with theta beats which would make me more relaxed, but I can't afford to be more relaxed because I need the energy to succeed in college.
It could just be a coincidence that I started using these at a time when I was under stress. In some ways I feel like they're helping, but I'm not sure, I haven't been using them for that long. They may have cured my Cyclothymia, but I still feel manic at times.
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I've tried 12 Hz and it seems to have the same effect as 10 Hz. I recently switched to 10 Hz because a website that I looked at said that it was the strongest alpha frequency. Are there any specific benefits that 12 Hz has that 10 Hz doesn't.
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After reading the description it sounds like 12 Hz would be more helpful for me because it's for mental stability and it boarders on the beta range so it'd be better for concentrating on school work. I'll have to switch to using that frequency. Thank you.
Yes, I have definately noticed the effects. The first time I tried 12 Hz I felt the way I used to feel when I was younger when I woke up on Christmas morning. They have brought more meaning to my life. It could be that I have been switching between different kinds of frequencies in the same day combined with stress that has been causing these negative effects on me. I'll have to cut back on how many different frequencies I use in one day.
But I don't know what I'm going to do about the scythe. I'll have to be careful to make sure that it stays hidden and try to be less irritated and control my anger better. I guess it's still kind of cool to have and it's not hurting anyone just by me owning it. I'm going to try to improve my life and state of mind. I'll just have to stop listening to 3 or 4 different kinds of frequencies in one day and switch to 1 or 2 so I don't get head aches and my state of mind will be better. I've had Cyclothymia for a while and it hasn't been too good to me. I've only been using binaurals for a few weeks, they could be the cure for my Cyclothymia.
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I also have an old rusty sickle and some aluminum knuckles. I just paid good money to get the scythe so I'm kind of reluctant to sell it. I'm kind of torn apart about it. I also don't know how I'd get rid of it if I decided to.