I haven't had real feelings in almost two years.

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04 Dec 2011, 4:29 pm

When I was younger, I would go through phases like this, but they only lasted a few months(which seemed like an eternity at the time).

Now, I haven't felt anything deeply since 2010.

Everything I feel comes and goes so quickly, and it's all just very shallow.

I can't say I feel absolutely nothing, though. I still feel love (for a few people), but I have actually stopped loving others who were once very close to me and I'm having an awful time relating to anyone on a REAL level, even the people I love.

I know the feeling, because in the past I was always somewhat restricted in my emotions, BUT I still felt, what I thought, were the "impotant" things and I could bond with almost anyone if I wanted to, it just took some time.

Now, it just doesn't happen.

Anyone gone through this and came back out of it?



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04 Dec 2011, 4:43 pm

Do you take meds?



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04 Dec 2011, 4:55 pm

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Do you take meds?


Nope.

Nothing in 5ish years.

When I was younger I did and still went through the phases, though.

I dare say many of them made it worse.



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04 Dec 2011, 5:08 pm

Maybe it's because what you think is important to you isn't really, and most of what you do is to please others, but you've forgotten about yourself.



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04 Dec 2011, 5:15 pm

snapcap wrote:
Maybe it's because what you think is important to you isn't really, and most of what you do is to please others, but you've forgotten about yourself.


Heh.

Well, I haven't done anything to please anyone in this sam time period, since I've taken a tepback to really analyze exactly who and what it is that I care about.

I just didn't expect to be without emotions for this long, and if it lasts I think I really might get worried.



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04 Dec 2011, 5:35 pm

Find something that riles you up and saturate yourself in it for awhile. Instant emotion.



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04 Dec 2011, 10:21 pm

Could it be depression?



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05 Dec 2011, 8:57 am

EXPECIALLY wrote:
Now, I haven't felt anything deeply since 2010.

Everything I feel comes and goes so quickly, and it's all just very shallow.


I've been this way for years.

Unless I'm passionate about something, I don't carry feelings for it for very long. Anger, rage, irritation, etc., these things I can feel easily and regularly. All of the "noble emotions" (love, etc.) I feel hardly ever.

It makes things difficult because having empathy, making friends, etc. require feelings I'm just not getting, and ironically, this only gets me angry because I'm concerned about the fact that I feel nothing when social convention indicates that I should feel "something."

I'm trying to find something the fires my passions so that perhaps I'll start forming emotional connections again rather than becoming ever more of a recluse.



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05 Dec 2011, 9:15 am

I don't feel many emotions, although I do feel some emotions strongly.

I don't really have any feelings about this.

Well, except I hate anxiety and depression. I'd rather not experience those.



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06 Dec 2011, 6:21 pm

swbluto wrote:
Could it be depression?


The upside is that depression is one I'm pretty much incapable of feeling.



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06 Dec 2011, 10:38 pm

I have a friend who has Depression who's like that. I was also like that for a couple of years in my early twenties until I was put on antidepressants.


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