What counts as intrusive thoughts?

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I can't even go outside without actively and intentionally try to avoid all things that could possibly make me feel uneven. Very annoying.

I'm not too bad. I only avoid spit, dirt on the floor, directly touching handles, or buttons and keeping a distance from people when talking or especially eating so as to not be spat on.
And public toilets. Just in general they're avoided haha.
I actually avoid stopping around with friends sometimes because I don't like using other peoples toilets..
I am much more likely to have constant thoughts of how things around me could go wrong and how I'd escape with my life and save other people, like public transport, crossing roads, being in lifts or on escalators, in crowded places. Or if alone with someone I don't know, or when someone is showing my particular interest I consider the worst case scenario.
I don't mind most the time, but it's when it's about other people I'm not with that it's annoying.
My little brother is on holiday and my mother and her husband are on a holiday somewhere else, and I'm constantly worrying about how and when they might die over there, and what I should do from all the way over here to protect them and my sisters here etc. =.='

Intrusive thoughts. For me, intrusive thoughts are like this. I won't be too specific, wouldn't want to trigger anyone, and don't want to embarrass myself.

This is metaphorical... sort of, but not really.

I'm trying to watch a movie I like, maybe it's actually a movie, maybe it's just a good day. The channel changes on it's own, and there's porn that I don't like, as well as disgusting horror movie gore mixed in. I get this all the time.

It's like I'm listening to a song I like, and then the song gets turned off and interrupted by loud farts and people who hate the song that I like, saying things like this song sucks, or whatever.

Of course, this is all thoughts, not hallucinations or anything. It's like my brain just loses control and starts thinking of the worst possible things that I do not want to think of.

I've had that too.

Now that I'm older, I've concluded that it's our Personal Demon.

Just tell him to go away and leave you alone.

http://www.askahealer.com/fighting-demons.htm