lonely when im not alone... and im lonely when i am alone!

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I long for human interaction but when I get it, I don't know what to do and get uncomfortable and try to slide away. its like I'm damned if I do and I'm damned if I don't. it doesn't just apply in real life but on the internet too. I make posts with the intentions of interaction but when it comes, I don't know what to say and don't want to respond. I worry about what people will think of the things I say and how the Congo looks. I can't tell if what I'm saying is boring. its stressful!

around people its worse! like my little sister and her friends come over and I want to talk to them so I make a single comment and they try to come talk to me but I don't know what to do or say so I move around the house and try loosing them. they follow. I do eventually shake them though.

I'm lonely when I'm not alone and when I am alone I'm lonely. Much less so when I am alone. I can entertain myself, but it only goes so far. I think like ill never have a wife or friends or a real life with a job. all because I have a communication retardation and it kills me!

anyone else have this problem?

In my case it is partly related to the interent addiction. I am so used to meeting my social needs online that socializing in person just doesnt do it; so when I am in social situation i feel lonely because it keeps me away from checking my email, or this forum, or few other forums I post on.

But, at the same time, internet doesnt do it either because it is not in person so I cant really enjoy going to the party with the internet contacts I have. So that puts me between rock and hard place: internet is not good enough because it is not in person and in person is not good enough because it is not online.

But at the same time the above is probably due to social difficulties. If I were doing okay socially in person and had several freinds in person, perhaps I would have grown to like it in the same ways I have grown to like the internet. In person I cant just walk up to someone and start to tlak while on the interent I do it all the time. So I was conditioned to like interent due to that repeated pattern of rewards, and thats why the occasial misplacement of said rewards (occasional in-person interaction) wont change much. But if I were to have better social skills I would have been conditioned to enjoy in person interaction and then internet wont be necessary.

i had a similar problem
basically you just have to keep pushing yourself a little bit to be around people for just a little bit longer, be a little bit more expressive, etc.
in a few months you'll probably realize you've become more confident and outgoing than half of the people you run into and have no idea how you got there