kraftiekortie wrote:
There are times when I feel similar to you.
How's everything going, otherwise?
Well mostly bad
but I am willing to try music lessons. I worry though I won't fit in again!! !! ! Its the SAME thing like with work the odds are the gorgeous girls in those groups will go to the guy that has more friends regardless of whether or not I can do music well and not only will that hurt my self image and self esteem, but it'll also make me feel worthless. I have tried things like this in the past nothing worked. I shower everyday, and groom properly and stuff, nothing. They all want guys who are not socially inept, and won't drop things or constantly forget things all the time. I really want to do this to at least open myself up a bit as nothing else I try works.
I can't afford therapy and meds make me sick. So I am trapped. I can't get out of this locked door. Aspergers truly, and always will, suck ,and worst of all I have to deal with this conflab thing for life. GREAT......
Sorry for being so negative but life has been dealing me a very bad hand, and I just don't feel good about it. Pretty much to most I don't exist.