I think no one has answered because it's hard to tell what you mean and what you are asking. As Seven would say, "Elaborate." I'm not sure if you want to be mentally ill or if you are afraid of being mentally ill or are tired of dealing with the thoughts that are part of your mental illness. Are you asking if wanting to stop your meds is a sign of psychosis? Why do you want to go off your meds? Do you want to go off them to see if you will become psychotic? Do you think the meds are not doing you any good or that you can do without them?