Psychiatric pills or mental hospital - Is that all?

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Hi guys I'm new here, my name is Jason. I am 32 years old and I have high functioning autism and BPD. This sums things up for me too. Two years ago I went off my meds once because I did not like the way I felt on them. It was spring time and my meds were really making me tired and I really wanted to be able to do stuff outside. I felt weird being so tired I had to go to bed when it was so beautiful outside. My doctor(s) at the time would not listen to me and refused to give me anything different. My primary psych doc even prescribed lithium because she felt I was unstable. I tired to tell her that the meds were making me tired and I wanted to enjoy the beautiful spring weather we were having. She asked me if I was feeling suicidal! I sarcastically said "yes i want more energy so I can kill myself" and I told her that I didn't want to take even more drugs so she threatened me with that "inpatient treatment for non compliance" stuff so I ran out her office. When I got home the police were waiting for me and they took me to the hospital where I was made to stay against my will for 10 days! They said I was being non compliant and said I was a flight risk. I got searched, issued a yellow jump suit and they put me up on a secure locked floor of the hospital for my 10 day "incarceration" I was put back on my meds and basically treated like a criminal with no privacy or rights at all. If I didn't take them I just got held and had them stuck into me. They did not understand me and seemed not to care and it was like when I talked they would not even listen to me. I never liked like sleeping in a bed even at home and just prefer to snuggle up in a chair with a warm blanket. On my first night I took my blanket and pillow to the corner of the room and fell asleep. One of the nurses woke me up and told me to go back to my bed. I tried to explain that I like sleeping like that and she threatened to put me in restraints When I tried to get up and go back to my bed she radioed for help. Two orderlies arrived in seconds and carried me onto my bed and they put me in a thick brown plastic belt thing that went all the way around my waist and then locked down to the sides of the bed. Those guys didn't hurt me or anything like that but I still don't think I deserved that and I hated it. I hardly slept because I was not used to a bed and they had me locked in that contraption. I got that treatment for the next 4 nights even though I wasn't acting up. My door was also locked at night since the butt hole that signed me in labeled me a flight risk. There was just no need to restrain me on my bed those nights too. Now I always feel like I am in a constant state of "take your meds or you're going in". I don't want to go back in so I just take the meds and submit to random bs tests.

I am in the USA but I am not really comfortableh giving my location out. I just want a place where I could talk freely and not feel like I am in danger of anyone trying to lock me in a hospital. As far as my trip to the psych ward, I am afraid and do not want to give details or names. I want to let sleeping dogs lie.

No.

Medicinal diet & probiotics.

These have worked far better than any pills I've ever taken.

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