OneStepBeyond wrote:
i also find it abit difficult sometimes to tell whether ive done something wrong or whether someones just being stupid. i think its because people have manipulated me in the past which has led me to doubt my own opinions vs what others tell me, and be cautious of whether they are being genuine or just trying to make me feel bad.
i also apologise generally way to much for silly little things. sometimes i automatically say sorry in situations where i did nothing, like when somebody bumps into me:/. i even annoy myself with it
Sounds like me! I hate apologizing so much but I can't help genuinely feeling bad about little things that might not even be anybody's fault. It's another source of anxiety for us in a confusing world I guess. It's like my mind only sees right and wrong all the time and if one tiny little thing makes me feel like it could possibly be something I could have prevented, even if it was someone joking with me and then telling me so afterwards, I'll put it in the "Wrong" category and I'll beat myself up over it. I wish I didn't have those two big divides and could just deal with grey areas like everyone else can.