I feel so at home here reading stuff like this... can't believe that, after all, I'm not the only one in the world like me
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I apologise a lot too. I think it is at least partly a self-esteem thing with me - I'm so used to getting things wrong and being misunderstood or considered rude when I would am actually a good person, that I just assume now that I'm wrong pretty much all the time, so that is why I feel the need to apologise.
Sometimes I wonder whether I'm apologising for what I'm supposed to have done wrong, or whether I'm apologising for existing and inconveniencing the non-aspies with my defective existence. (btw I'm not saying aspies are defective - because we certainly are not! I just mean that I think that about myself when I have low self-esteem.)
This is how I thought long before I knew what an aspie was... (edit-this is
EXACTLY how i thought) but in the last few years I've found that you don't owe s**t to anybody, and you have every right to exist... just because you can't communicate the same doesn't mean you're any less of a person, or have any less rights to make mistakes. Plus, just imagine all the stuff that so many NT's think that are just wrong and evil and dishonest...being so honest my entire life has let me realize that I'm not such a bad person after all just for being weird around people.
sorry for my rant, my midnight shift has me all screwed up and I never went to sleep tonight (my 'day' off of work), and I found tons and tons of pearl jam videos on youtube that just have me pumped! After I found them I had to go get a six pack to watch them.
if you were lucky enough to be obsessed with pearl jam's 'ten' then
WATCH THIS!! !
Also, this is an amazing one for the
nirvana fans.