Asperger’s made me a dedicated seeker of Truth

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30 Sep 2007, 11:30 am

My Asperger’s made me a dedicated seeker of Truth. I sure couldn’t get it from society. The churches I was drug to didn’t know jack. But science resonated with me; they were also seeking truth. I read everything I could lay my hands on with regards physics, chemistry and mathematics. But then I was too busy just trying to survive. The Humanism I was taught in government school didn’t cut it. I saw through it that it was based upon atheism and therefore nihilism. Man, was that a bummer!

I got into the occult through science fiction. I started a research group of misfits checking it out. Ended up with ghosts in my parent’s house. When I got a recurring dream of doom, I quit it all.

When I got a maritime job out of college, I was bitter, suspicious, skeptical, sarcastic and selfish. Like Pontius Pilate, I had given up on “truth.” One of my old occult buddies had turned Jesus freak and sent me tracts and booklets. I wrote rebuttals in them and mailed them back to him.

One day he mailed that his group was praying for me. I was amused, “let them stand on their heads in the corner for me, for all the good it’ll do them.” But the hound of heaven was on my trail after that.

One time when I was off the ship and traveling, I found a Seventh Day Adventist book in my motel room that showed there were supernatural things in the Bible. Hum. Another time I was off I was looking for a thick book to read. On caprice I thought about Bibles. Man, what a variety there was! I picked one that read easily and bought it.

I started reading it at Genesis 1:1, of course. I worked my way all the way through Ruth when I decided to go to the New Testament “to see how it ended.” That fellow Jesus was really something. The more I read of him, they more I wanted to follow his example. But he wanted all or nothing. Hum. After thinking about it for a while, I finally raised my right hand in that empty room and said, “I’ll do it.”

I knew I was going to end up in the company of those “Christians.” They all said they had the last word on God and they all disagreed with each other. Somebody was lying — and it would take more than my lifetime to figure out who was being straight.

I started earnestly praying to God for wisdom. He came through. I ended up with Word of Knowledge. As we talked together, a lot of my old ways just sloughed off. He interpreted the liberal Bible I had to a more conservative understanding. My booze, cigarettes and porno went over the side of the ship. Then one day, he told me to get off the ship, head ‘west’ and follow. I did. It has been quite an adventure.

35 years later, I found out I had Aspergers. No wonder I had such trouble with bosses and pastors! No wonder everyone eventually thought me as strange. No wonder I had to try so much harder than everyone around me just to keep my head above water. But I had Jesus to comfort and guide me all that time.Asperger Syndrome InfoAutism research



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30 Sep 2007, 3:39 pm

You are of course entitled to your opinion, but then I am entitled to disagree. Nothing in my life has been achieved with the help of god or Jesus, I'm where I am today thanks to doctors who knew what they were doing and a lot of hard work on my part.

In any event, I spent six years working in the Middle East where a large number of people insist that Allah is the one true god and Mohammed is his one true messenger. One of you must be wrong and since I have seen no hard scientific evidence of heaven or hell I feel pretty safe.

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30 Sep 2007, 4:29 pm

firenothing wrote:
35 years later, I found out I had Aspergers. No wonder I had such trouble with bosses and pastors! No wonder everyone eventually thought me as strange. No wonder I had to try so much harder than everyone around me just to keep my head above water.


Most anti-social *disorders* list issues with authority figures as being symptoms.
Did you ever consider that anyone who doesn't conform to the *norm* is considered *strange*?
Spaciness, daydreaming, falling behind in school are also symptoms of childhood depression and trauma.



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30 Sep 2007, 4:41 pm

Right on firenothing.



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30 Sep 2007, 5:27 pm

Welcome to WP!
Congratulations on finding the peace of Christ and fulfillment in your life.


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30 Sep 2007, 8:11 pm

Welcome, firenothing!


Quote:
WAR IS PEACE
FREEDOM IS SLAVERY
IGNORANCE IS STRENGTH


AND BIG BROTHER IS WATCHING

I love that book.


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