anbuend wrote:
Rain_Bird wrote:
I used to think I was an indigo about 3 to 4 years ago (around 14-15 years old). Apparently 90% of the regular posters at this one message board I was on were also "indigos" (probably only about 20 people, all around my age). Really we were all just social outcasts with an obsession with New Age stuff and the paranormal, nowhere to go but an online message board, and a desperate need to feel special...
Yeah. I never got sucked into indigo/crystal, but I think I got into star children stuff for the same reason. I built that stuff into a complicated mythology I'd already half-created half-borrowed from other stuff (which, yep, had wood-elves in it, although mine resembled dryads in some ways, but I already knew I wasn't original once I met a few other auties who did the exact same thing). There's a whole new age market out there for misfits and outcasts.
Our idea of indigos actually combined with the star child/starseed theory (we tended to use the terms interchangeably), with other crazy ideas like 2012 thrown in, and built what could only be described as a cult around the idea that we were "space aliens" incarnated on earth for the betterment of mankind, even though all we did was sit in front of our computers all day complaining about how no one understands us and how much we hated the "Normals"* (the term we coined for normal "earthlings") even though it was those same "Normals" whom we were supposedly here to help in the first place. And I was regrettably the cult leader. The only thing that could have made it worse is if I hadn't realized how stupid the whole things was, held onto those insane beliefs into adulthood, and went outside the internet with it (probably would have either landed me in the nuthouse, or in prison for trying to start a cult and brainwash people).
Oh well, we're all allowed to have one crazy belief system in our lifetimes (though I was also sucked into the trap of Christianity by a fundie friend when I was even younger, before getting into all the New Age stuff [and trying to get away from that was probably what led me to the New Age stuff to begin with...], so I guess I've had more than my fair share of crazy in my life). At least I got past it before turning 18, when I could have really caused some damage promoting such insanity, which is more than a lot of people can say. I could have easily became the next L. Ron Hubbard (actually, that could be kinda cool.
What's better than telling people a stupid story and having them believe you?! Having them PAY you for it, stupid!). lol
I feel ret*d typing all that...
*(side note) actually, if you replace the term "indigo/starseed" with "aspie" and "Normal" with NT, I see the exact same crap going on here, and it really needs to stop because it doesn't accomplish anything...