Does anyone here have depersonalization disorder?

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I believe that I can relate to this although I don't think I could put it into words...

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From wiki regarding depersonalization disorder -

"The core symptom of depersonalization disorder is the subjective experience of unreality. Common descriptions are: watching oneself from a distance; out-of-body experiences; a sense of just going through the motions; feeling as though one is in a dream or movie; not feeling in control of one's speech or physical movements; and feeling detached from one's own thoughts or emotions.[3] These experiences may cause a person to feel uneasy or anxious since they strike at the core of a person's identity...
An analogy is comparing real life to a game, a game everyone plays, all the time. Someone suffering from depersonalization disorder constantly feels as if they cannot get into the game; any stimulus feels contrived or artificial to them. The rules of this game seem to have been forcibly applied upon them (anything from movement, to gravity or hunger) instead of being inherently applicable to them. If understanding dawns upon them of what they should be experiencing, it is often through reason and observation, or the feeling of knowing what and why it is happening. This sort of insight seems to rob everything of its spontaneity, its importance already having been diminished because of their sense of detachment. They are perpetual, and almost all the time, involuntary, cynics of our reality."

If I could have put it into words it would be something like that.

Ive never been dx'ed with this but have been dx'ed with several personality disorders, and psychosises, which could cause depersonalization symptoms. I do feel like im in a game and everything has always seemed very unreal. I know i dont have ptsd because ive never expierenced what i would concider trauma. I dont have much emotions and am unaware of the few i do have, although i can have random outbursts of anger. unlike most aspies i dont really have any anxiety or emotions. The only think i am usually aware of feeling is anger when other people show emotion. I feel absoulately nothing when i am severly dissociated and most of the time. Sometimes i feel controled by other entieties physical, and non physical. I dont have blackouts like most people with dissociative disorders. People tell me i appear to have no personality or feelings. These symptoms have always been present so i think their neurological. any ideas what could cause this?

Everyone depersonalizes sometimes especially if you are on the autism spectrum. Some people are more prone to day dreaming or disassociating than others. As far as Disassociative Identity Disorders; it is still a very controversial. Many doctors donot believe in it.