A job interview that reflects my past as I stop running

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18 Oct 2005, 3:01 am

final paychecks and patience wrote:
I am going to my Target interview tommorow at 2pm.
It (if adquried) will be a winter-keep me occupied-job!

It will not house me, but allow me to have a minimal
income as the other parts of my life(autism services)
get tested and sorted. I would prefer a full time $1200-$2000
a month job, but that can wait, lets stop running and
facing the reality of my autism that has stopped my
progress as a individual since 18, or 21 years ago.

When I go for my college degree between 40-45 if
the opportunity is allowed, I will take it slow and let
it be a reward not the fictional million dollars that
disillusions those who are blinded by it.

I stopped running and must face the toughest battle
of my patience when it comes to waiting what Ican
achieve when I near conclusions one at a time.


I hope you folks are doing good at Wrong Planet.
I am not running but patiently seeing where this
autism dragon can be tamed.

The VAT(vocational appitutude tests) and
evaluated job performances took much time
to reach. It will be Sept 19th when I got my
Aspergers Diagnoses.

And when I arrived here in Apple Valley I
had just my basic clothing, a wallstreet and
a wifi card(later replaced). Now I am
letting myself not run, but accept Target type
of jobs as winter employment so i can face
this inner-demon from which 24 years got
lost by it.

Bless be the site for what it was and hopefully
able to do for others. I am now in the
present. Though you won't see my classic
writings, that is apparently what you want as
a site, and I don't feel I have a place there.
But that's ok, we all must live together,
though ghostly I will have become.

My energies are now focused on my 40-60 age
group areas severly neglected. Bless be those
here who are seeing college and a education.
Just remember that a college degree isn't a
million dollars but instead a challenge. my
40-45 target is up to me and what I can do
to slay this dragon. I may be a ghost to
society, but must stop being a ghost to myself.

I hope you folks are doing well, but it
perplexes me how simple writing I do confuse
those who are smart. I am discouraged by
this, so ghosty become I and solid become
you.

Hmmmm?
No questions, just a saying Hi! and sorry that
my writing styles are not grasped by a majority
of you(smart be you persons though). I don't
see my lessening my identity in my writing, and
won't be surprised if most of you don't get
this friendly greeting, such is my cursed ghostly
self.



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18 Oct 2005, 3:16 am

the reason for this posting is thoughts that
came from the emoti-vid "right now"


1)....go to http://frodis.net/marauder/potter/

2)....go to "right now" on the bottom of the
selections

3)....And this is what inspired the forum

4).... for my saddeness.....

see "immortal" on the following site

www.veritaserum.com/vtmmedia/fanmade



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18 Oct 2005, 3:30 am

for my internal saddness in life and death...
of my past! go to.....


www.veritaserum.com/vtmmedia/fanmade

3rd (General Video) down from the top.

"my immortal"

= (the one with harry going to the mirror)

emptiness be thy heart wrote:
I walk the valley of loveless lost and darkness
not curtailed by sun gaze. I, shunned by
child/mother in her own detached light
saw the darkness from the milk of her
breasts.

Labored in grief and hiding from others
and sexualities toy, beheaded others
who sought that was once lost on them
over others to compensate this loss.

Seeing one's death and of loved ones
in life from their own being and person
being in form and present reality.

Reflective of my thoughts that cannot
be grasped, the parents lost of youths
desire, the darkness veil that could
have solved and shrouded the one
and instead allowing it to live in
holes of darkness and rejection.

touching of the end is to allow the
beginning but conclusion of the whole.



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18 Oct 2005, 4:43 am

Ghosthunter wrote:
I hope you folks are doing well, but it
perplexes me how simple writing I do confuse
those who are smart. I am discouraged by
this, so ghosty become I and solid become
you...

Perhaps it's because I'm not too smart; your posts seem to make sense to me.

I've started doing an open uni degree, Ghosthunter, and I'm not far behind you in age!



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18 Oct 2005, 7:58 am

I must confess that I do have trouble with the writing style, it makes me think too much!

However, your reputation has preceded you and I look forward to the brain cell stimulation that inevitably will occur.

Agree that college education is not the total answer. Years of failing at jobs even after getting a PhD attest to that. I fail at all of my jobs based on inability to negotiate the social environment. Currently losing a job due to this. It will be the fifth job I have lost in this manner. None of the places could complain about the quality of my work.

I have tried to have jobs such as the one you are seeking at Target. But once you have an advanced degree one becomes suspect when trying to take a job for which one is seen as being overqualified. My best jobs have been when people didn't know what my education was. I worked in a bookstore and loved it. My mom basically bribed me to quit.

I am not sure what my next job will be. Meanwhile, glad to have you here and helping provide some limited structure and intellectual exercise for me.

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18 Oct 2005, 8:28 am

Quote:
I am going to my Target interview tommorow at 2pm.
It (if adquried) will be a winter-keep me occupied-job!



Good idea. I recently quit my job at the pipe-fittings factory; it was just too difficult for me to balance school, work and myself. I'm looking into getting a part-time job sometime in the winter to help keep my funds up, but for me, not having a job is a good thing.

Best of luck with the target interview.


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When I go for my college degree between 40-45 if
the opportunity is allowed, I will take it slow and let
it be a reward not the fictional million dollars that
disillusions those who are blinded by it.



It is good to see that you are not blinded by this common illusion.

Yes. This sort of thing bothers me a bit, as most people in the feild I am studying tend to be out of work for a while and re-enter the workforce at a high rate. I should probably study something else to help me fill in the time when I am out of work, but am not entirely sure what, or even if I want to work for years straight. I am a very cheap person, and I think it might be practible to do as such.


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Bless be the site for what it was and hopefully
able to do for others. I am now in the
present. Though you won't see my classic
writings, that is apparently what you want as
a site, and I don't feel I have a place there.
But that's ok, we all must live together,
though ghostly I will have become.



That is your decision, and I respect it. I will be looking forward to them; better something than nothing, IMHO.


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I hope you folks are doing well, but it
perplexes me how simple writing I do confuse
those who are smart. I am discouraged by
this, so ghosty become I and solid become
you.


Your syntax is very different from what most people are used to. At first, I had tremendous trouble understanding what you wanted to say, but after some pratice (and your personal explainaiton) I think I have some understanding of what you are trying to state.


I hope things are well with you and beebee!


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18 Oct 2005, 11:07 am

GH! :D It's great to see you again! :D


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Ghosthunter wrote:
I hope you folks are doing well, but it
perplexes me how simple writing I do confuse
those who are smart. I am discouraged by
this, so ghosty become I and solid become
you...
Perhaps it's because I'm not too smart; your posts seem to make sense to me.

I've started doing an open uni degree, Ghosthunter, and I'm not far behind you in age!Back to top


Hmmmm?

Slight dramatic pause!

Thanks for posting here! I am glad you can
interpret my writings. That must be a rare
gift! I am also glad you replied. You are new
to me? If so, welcome to the miind of ghosthunter.

How old are you? You said that you are around
my age. What is a open uni? Is that a correspondence
school?

What is you topic of study? What do you do that
inspires you? Hmmmmmm?

Most inquisitvely yours,
Ghosthunter



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I must confess that I do have trouble with the writing style, it makes me think too much!


There is nothing with stimulating, it keeps us
young and immortal beyond physical age. So
keep excercizing those muscles.


neuroman wrote:
However, your reputation has preceded you and I look forward to the brain cell stimulation that inevitably will occur.


PZZZZZZZZZZ! a few more brains cells
stimulated. Hmmmmm? What reputation?
It is intriguing to hear how one is pecieved?
Hmmmm?

a friendly poem wrote:
Silence be the mind, sublte be the cues!
Inspirator of delight sharpen this sword
and prepare to do battle with the slight pause
that holds one back and more.

Slain were the bodies of the casualties
of days past and forward into the jungle
of intellectual delight.

Eye not drawn from the back, but forth
in the forward. Slashed be the shrubery
that held me back!


neuroman wrote:
Agree that college education is not the total answer. Years of failing at jobs even after getting a PhD attest to that. I fail at all of my jobs based on inability to negotiate the social environment. Currently losing a job due to this. It will be the fifth job I have lost in this manner. None of the places could complain about the quality of my work.


Hmmmm? What is your degree in?
5 jobs of what variety? and how is your social/
communication skills in reality if you put yourself
into their shoes?

A example wrote:
I am my worst critic, so I
look(mostly after the damage is done) what they
might have percieved and try to correct and
adapt to this knowledge without losing identity.


So try to look outside your shoes and
you and I both can be amazed!

neuroman wrote:
I have tried to have jobs such as the one you are seeking at Target. But once you have an advanced degree one becomes suspect when trying to take a job for which one is seen as being overqualified. My best jobs have been when people didn't know what my education was. I worked in a bookstore and loved it. My mom basically bribed me to quit.


If I were a betting person, she thought you might
have a better future! I had a employer(goth older
lady) who had a degree in Science and chemistry
but found that it wasn't what she expected out side
the hobby lab. Hmmmmm? Does this apply to you?

Hmmmmmm? How old are you? 27 should be accurate?
And your mom wants to take you beyond $10 perhour.
Don't get older to realize that.

neuroman wrote:
I am not sure what my next job will be. Meanwhile, glad to have you here and helping provide some limited structure and intellectual exercise for me.

Duh


how is your structure limited?
Intellectual excerisize is already happening!
Hmmmm? Seee a little PZZZZZZZ! to add more
brain stimulation.

Hope to hear from you soon,
Ghosthunter



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I am going to my Target interview tommorow at 2pm.
It (if adquried) will be a winter-keep me occupied-job!



Good idea. I recently quit my job at the pipe-fittings factory; it was just too difficult for me to balance school, work and myself. I'm looking into getting a part-time job sometime in the winter to help keep my funds up, but for me, not having a job is a good thing.


I am sad you lost that opportunity? I remember
how you showed pride in the opportunity. But a
last paycheck is another. It is we who have to
realize the value of this last paycheck! Why do
you think I left my S.F last paycheck, so......

Slight pause....
A congradualtions in order since you are apparently
listening to your heart and forsight, bless it be.

Hmmmmm? How does your mom and dad feel
about this? I can see your view though!

I after 5 days at Grief lifting boxing realized that
was not for me, but I needed the income to see
other things happen.

Since you are in school, those other plans are
already in action, so god-bless.

prometheus wrote:
Best of luck with the target interview.

And i say thanks. I didn't do well, but tried to
keep balance of thought and learnings.

1)....I arrived at 2pm

2)....Everyone got the 2nd interviews and
I had to remind them of mine

3)...I was wordy and overbearing a bit
since I need this $'s for winter. I tried
to keep it less scarry then usual, but if
they were the customer, I would have failed!
Sigh!! !!

But i did conquer the computer this time!
and got called for what might become a
practice interview! I will try to trick the
Walmart one next and learn from this
mistake with limited damage.

prometheus wrote:

Quote:
When I go for my college degree between 40-45 if
the opportunity is allowed, I will take it slow and let
it be a reward not the fictional million dollars that
disillusions those who are blinded by it.



It is good to see that you are not blinded by this common illusion.

Yes. This sort of thing bothers me a bit, as most people in the feild I am studying tend to be out of work for a while and re-enter the workforce at a high rate. I should probably study something else to help me fill in the time when I am out of work, but am not entirely sure what, or even if I want to work for years straight. I am a very cheap person, and I think it might be practible to do as such.


And from meeting you, fiercely independent.
I was greatly honored meeting you. and the
CeeRay was a memorable and unique place.
Bedford is awesome in the postcard department
and that cannot be said for most places.
You are blessed with great loving parents,
so all will work itself out, you are a tall tree.


prometheus wrote:
Quote:
Bless be the site for what it was and hopefully
able to do for others. I am now in the
present. Though you won't see my classic
writings, that is apparently what you want as
a site, and I don't feel I have a place there.
But that's ok, we all must live together,
though ghostly I will have become.



That is your decision, and I respect it. I will be looking forward to them; better something than nothing, IMHO.


True and False, i am not gone, I am posting
this!

I am just hesitant to write deeply, thus limit my
writings. I have people who see what I have done
even after my bad spell.

I seek not to wow! but be myself and let those
who seek to find find. I value my identity as
do you, and you found me! God-Bless


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Quote:
I hope you folks are doing well, but it
perplexes me how simple writing I do confuse
those who are smart. I am discouraged by
this, so ghosty become I and solid become
you.


Your syntax is very different from what most people are used to. At first, I had tremendous trouble understanding what you wanted to say, but after some pratice (and your personal explainaiton) I think I have some understanding of what you are trying to state.


I hope things are well with you and beebee!


I am my own specimen as is someone else
their, they who find me seek, I am giving
either way, that is me, and am glad some find
me. BeeBee is doing a great job here, and
here patience is allowing the VAT and other
services. I had to wait a month for the VAT,
and so forth. This is to tame the creature called
autism, not run! I hope I am being brave.

Hope to hear from you soon,
your friend Ghosthunter



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GH! It's great to see you again!


And it is good that you found me here.
Did you catch the birthday forum(ghostly
update), and check out the oldtime radio
selections, or the emotivids on this forum?

How are you since the hurricane?
Are you whole and complete physically
and emotionally from it? That must have
been a scarry thing, heck.....scarier than
me hurricaning in your area!

Hmmmmm? You know the last sentence
was humor, because i was concerned about
you! Hope to hear from you soon!

Ghosthunter



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19 Oct 2005, 4:52 pm

I wish you well, Ghosthunter.


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19 Oct 2005, 10:03 pm

I'm fine and dandy, GH. :D St. Louis just got a little rain.

And, no, I didn't notice you till now. Guess I'm not keeping my eyes peeled enough. 8O 8O 8O That's better.


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20 Oct 2005, 2:40 pm

How is the weather in St. Louis now?


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20 Oct 2005, 8:00 pm

Just started getting chillier again today. Hopefully the cooler weather will stay this time. Plus we got some rain and a brief thunder storm this evening. And the leaves on the trees are changing more noticeably.

I have the windows open, fans in front of them, and a lovely breeze flowing into my bedroom. :D


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21 Oct 2005, 2:55 pm

I hope you are enjoying it.


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