I really miss her... I had absolutely no contact with her for 1 1/2 years, then suddenly she e-mails me again, after I had sent her pretty nasty mails where I called her a "perverted teen boy looser" and things like that. Obviously she had not checked her Hotmail account for all this time, as I think they automatically delete unread e-mail after 1 month.
I just turned 33 and yesterday, to my great joy I found all of the action figures I collected when I was 11-15 and that I put in the attic at age 16. I spent last night playing with my Transformers and my Mask stuff. I've planned to actually sell my gigantic amount of Masters of the Universe figures because I'm more into Transformers. You see my immaturity? I loved action figures at a time other boys were getting their first girlfriend!
I was pretty frank with this girl, if she was one. I finally had the nerve to tell her I just wanted sex and that I wasn't a great musician. I can barely play my way through Metallica's "The Unforgiven" and I just understood what 16th notes are. I want to learn more music, because it's so much of it in my head! She was pretty frank about sex herself in some of her e-mails and I just played along.
As the perverted male virgin geek I am I thought I had found my perfect match and that she was some teen nympho who would sleep with every guy who knows what the strings are called on a bass, absolutely no matter how they look.
I thought she was a total outsider like me. I told you she was only 4"10 1/2, so she probably knows what it's like to be different.
I'm never going to e-mail her back, I had lunch with my mom and my dad's cousin and her husband. To avoid overeating on the food there (I binge eat to get stress and anxiety of of my head and body) I had to leave the table (wich they all accept, they know I'm an Aspie) and a have a timeout, sitting at a different table reading a magazine. That's how weird and how "semi-retarded" I feel.
Should I have e-mailed her back? I'm never going to anyway, so it doesn't matter.