When things go wrong I just burn up I mean sudden body temperature rise that takes a while to settle.
I have trouble sleeping, Ambien and others only give me 4 hours tops and take ages to kick in.
Yet I feel tireder now than I did when I was not on medication.
It appears my short lived intense very hot sleep, my partner says I feel on fire, is maybe what it needs and I'm not supposed to sleep.

Whatever it is I am just not comfortable in this vessel, I want a break from all this stimulus and discomfort.

I sometimes don't think the beauty I see, feel and give is worth all the pain that comes with it.

Anyone else scared to death of mirrors or windows on darkness?

i sympathize completely. when i am upset, my temperature skyrockets and my face and chest get bright red and will not fade for almost an hour. sleeping is a challenge too, but i have found that if i physically exhaust myself i can sleep, but its not restfull sleep. noises and smells and lights and invasions of my personal space are sometimes enough to make me wanna crawl under a rock and hide. i dont have a problem with mirrors, but darkness gives me panic attacks. and dealing with people is so confusing and exhausting that ive almost completely given up. i know i have aspergers, but the shrink i saw said it was just anxiety because im a woman and only little boys have aspergers. i dont understand this world or the people in it or why everything seems so much harder for me than everyone else. youre not alone. if you, or anyone who is reading this would like to talk, i am here. feel free to contact me. this is the only way i get to socialize ;(

I hear you its very much a hot topic in children right now and the older ones are falling through the cracks.