Last Friday, I saw the lady who works with the Autistic at my Twelve Step meeting. I said to myself that I wasn't going to say anything to her about what we talked about before. During our hug break, I went outside, attempted to talk to a couple of people (mostly LOOK like I was a part of the conversation).

As I was standing at the railing, she approached me and said that she hadn't forgotten that I asked her about my concerns of being somewhere on the Spectrum. She said that she intends to give me a contact person at her job so that I can ask questions and get an idea of what an assessment involves.

I was shocked because I fully expected that she would just blow me off. We discussed how ASDs come in so many forms and that even people with classic Autism vary greatly in the presentation of their symptoms and gave examples of her clients.

With so many people thinking that other people are just latching onto a fad, I never expected much...STILL don't. Even I think that the combination of things I've been through just makes me a colossal LOSER. But I can still point to a lifetime pattern of experiences that indicate a great difficulty in social communication rigid, black-and-white thinking and other issues to the point it impairs me in various areas of my life significantly.

Such issues do not necessarily make for a positive diagnosis, but I feel it's worth investigating to know if that IS what's going on or if I need to look elsewhere. Or maybe the LOSER theory holds true.

WHO knows????