I am back from Autreat. I crashed heavily and often before and during Autreat. Now that it is afterwards, my mind seems kind of scrambled, but it's nothing like the stress it was under with the preparations and the activity itself. Bringing staff seems to have made a difference in that this time I was able to talk to people and have somewhat of a clue what was going on rather than mostly shut down in their presence. But I'm still having trouble remembering the event coherently. I'm assuming it will work its way into long-term memory eventually, and then I'll have more of a clue what happened there.