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eye contact 01-23-2006 08:14 pm AspieGurl's Blog
People tell me my gaze is too intense. I stare of into space a lot so I get ridiculed at school for staring at someone when I didn’t realize they were in front of me. I nearly got into several fights this year because people tend to think I’m challenging them with an evil glare. This lady on the city bus started yelling at me because she didn’t like the way I was looking at her child. I wasn’t even playing attention to the little girl I was looking out the window. My neighbor who happened to be on the bus at the time came to my defense and told the lady that I was harmless and just had very serious eyes. Last week my best friend was talking to me and I didn’t reply I just looked at her. She got mad and told me that I have a way of looking at people that makes them feel like s*hit.
Sometimes I won’t even look at a person when they are talking to me and they have to ask for my eye contact. Before I was diagnosed my boyfriend’s dad would always inform me of this problem. Strangers are always informing me as well. I told one guy about my autism and the true reason why I failed to meet his gaze in conversation and he thought I was lying.
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