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RANT (or, a Lonely Single Aspie's Cry For Help)
posted at 07:48 pm on 09-13-2009
Right now, I just don't know what I'm supposed to do with my life. Basically, having Asperger's syndrome and everything, I just feel like I can't take this life anymore...
More than anything else, I really want a girlfriend, with whom I'm able to share my 'geek' interests with and who would be able to love me and accept me for the quirky Aspie geek that I am. But any girl I show interest in - even the 'geeky' ones - are either already seeing some stupid toxic-waste sleazebag jock, or they simply just don't want to give me the time of day. In fact, a few are even so ignorant to regard Aspie men like myself as "creepy weirdos". I'm just so sick and tired of having to put up with being rejected anymore. And before anyone says I should be happy for any girl who's taken...how could that even be possible if I can't ever get any girl to like me as more than just a friend?
Lately I've been considering looking at opportunities to get on a reality-TV show or something of the sort in hopes that I would get noticed by more girls who'd be interested in a guy like me. Trouble is, that having Asperger's syndrome basically disqualifies you from getting on most reality shows, simply because they only want people of "excellent mental health". Don't they realize the Autistic Spectrum is VERY REAL, and that some of those shows could use somebody to represent people who have Asperger's or another Autistic disorder and help spread Autism awareness?? Again, it shows how ignorant the world is towards those of us having to put up with having Asperger's. Anymore you can't even get hired for a blue-collar job, let alone get on TV, if they see even just the smallest and slightest thing out-of-place in your mental and psychological profiles.
It does apparently seem to me that most neuro-typical people's impression of people like me who have Asperger's is generally negative - they would just think that we are all lazy, cowardly, unattractive, socially inept and/or just plain weird. They fail to realize that we cannot help this neurological curse that us Aspies have been born with and have to wrestle with all our lives. They also refuse to understand that, contrary to popular belief, we are NOT unemotional or unfeeling robots; We folks with Asperger's can also be able to love and care for other people, if we were given the chance which the neuro-typicals basically refuse to let us have. Rather than sympathize with us and our plight, they prefer to stigmatize us and look down upon us with the utmost loathing, derision and contempt - often to the point where it's driven some Aspies to contemplate (and in a few cases consummate) committing suicide. Ultimately, the skepticism that talk-radio pundit Michael Savage (among certain other infamously-outspoken critics of Autism and Asperger's) had once bluntly voiced regarding the Autistic Spectrum does not even come close to all the ignorance and indifference, all the apathy and aversion that those of us suffering from Asperger's have to face from the general neuro-typical populace each and every day.
I'm sorry to those that might find this latest blog upsetting, but I'm just sick and tired of being single and lonely, and always having to face rejection all the time from women. It's driven me to the point where I feel worthless, unwanted and miserable. I'm also sick of all the ignorance and stigmatization from the neuro-typical people towards those of us on the Autistic Spectrum as well. We Aspies and Auties are people too. We have hearts and feelings as well. Although it might not show (or at best, show improperly and/or awkwardly) many of us are able to have love and affection for other people we care about, and we also wish for love and affection in return. If people would be more accepting of those suffering from any sort of Autism or variant of Autism, this world would be a much happier place, and you wouldn't see so many gloomy and depressing rant-blogs like this one.
I would appreciate any comments and feedback on these thoughts I've just posted.
Tim (aka the Slipperman)
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