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Never going to be normal.
posted at 10:13 pm on 04-27-2007
I went to my friend's house with my other friend and I got high and I had the realization again that I'm NEVER going to be comfortable with other people.
I've lost about 13 pounds this past week and a half and I get to binge today, but I'm too sad to eat.
I hate life
posted at 05:45 pm on 04-17-2007
No matter how hard I try, I can't get what needs to be done. No one is on my side, and for once, I want to feel genuinely loved.
I hate life so much. I'm not interested in this one. It's not worth living. No one gives a shit about me, and no one will really miss me.
I've had it. I don't know if I can keep living like this anymore.
posted at 09:40 pm on 03-03-2007
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SWsc37Y_hcs&NR Clip from Lilja
posted at 07:27 am on 02-21-2007
I'm sorry for being an angry person.
I'm sorry for manipulating people.
I'm sorry I'm not nice.
I'm sorry I'm not entertaining.
I'm sorry I'm not funny.
I'm sorry I'm not happy.
I'm sorry I'm selfish.
I'm sorry I'm a liar.
I'm sorry I'm a horrible, miserable person.
Oh shit, not again. >.>
posted at 04:39 pm on 02-09-2007
Right now I'm feeling pretty sad. I'm a bitch for fucking up peoples' days just by talking to them on the internet.
The only way I can ever be 'cured' of this disease (no, not AS) is to just isolate myself from all people, and rock back and forth till I die.
These past few days have been tough.
posted at 10:32 pm on 01-13-2007
Today I've realized I will never have the normal social life that lots of people have naturally. Everytime I'm at someone's house, I feel the urge to teel them I'm sick and just leave their place.
I try to find people I'll enjoy spending time with, but it's a chore, and I never have fun interacting with people in real life.