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Miscarriage
posted at 03:47 pm on 09-19-2010
It's the worst thing I've had to go through this year. Complete and utter despair? That's all I had. My skin seemed to be ripping at it's seams with grief, and nobody was helping. Whenever someone opened their mouth about it, it was always, "It was the wrong time, anyways. You're only eighteen, right?"
Yes, I am "only eighteen"... but I'm also human. Humans mourn. Humans have rights to mourn. So, you know what? I guess I do, too. And you know what else? I do everyday. I mourn and I wear a bracelet I crocheted. (Pink and blue, the colors of the miscarriage awareness ribbon...)
I try. I really do try to be normal. But sometimes I cry. And I worry I may never stop. But I know it will. The tears will dry and the sun will shine. And knowing the endurance of the human spirit, my child's spirit will be back one day. Reincarnation is one of my beliefs when dealing with sudden death or loss. I believe if someone has their life taken away by someone else, or if they never got to see the light of day, they will come back.
My child never got to see the light of day. They will come back. I know it.
I love you, my baby.
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posted at 03:39 pm on 09-19-2010
Hey everyone... just saying hi. I basically have ha a horrible year marked with the best things that have ever happened to me.
Worst things: going through yet more abuse, yadda yadda whatever. its all old newss by now. Oh, and I've been diagnosed with two more problems, and they refuse to evaluate me with Asperger's. However, I've quit that clinic and they've closed my case, so I'm onto a better place - - - hopefully one that will actually HELP instead of HURT... and another bad thing happened, which was the worst thing that's ever happened to me, but I'll update about that later in another blog. The new blog which will explain what happened will basically just talk about how I'm coping with it.
best things: FOUND THE LOVE OF MY LIFE WHO ACCEPTS ME AS IS... and I got a new job, and I also am going to move outside of NY, which is an exciting new adventure! Yippee!
And that's about it. Anyways, I'm just tired lately. It's been exhausting. However, I wish 2010 was here to stay!!! I love it. It's been hard, but I just keep my head up up up!!! :)
Thanks for reading, please read my new blog when I post it. I'll start writing it when I add this one. Thanks!!!!!!! :)
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