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So that's why my parents took me out of Special Ed
posted at 05:32 am on 08-02-2009
I just had to get it off my chest and ask my parents why they took me out of the school with strict special ed classes once my grades improved. I finally mentioned to them that I was diagnosed with AS during college. Then my dad complained that there is a mental disorder for nearly everything, if anyone's just slightly neuroligically deviant from the norm. He said that I was just a little delayed in learning, and that the school had a negative attitude of treating me like I was diseased.
Though, what he didn't realize was that I was rejected and bullied so much by my peers in regular ed classrooms that I used to feel like I was diseased anyway. He also didn't realize that being diagnosed as on the autistic spectrum, in a way, has been a relief.
The only question I still have in my mind is why he thought that I picked up my behaviors from my classmates when it was obvious that wasn't the case.
I also brought up the issue of the diagnosis with my mom, and I said that AS could be a good explanation on the reason she paces around and talks to herself. I got the impression that she didn't care about whether she did or didn't have AS.
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New member confused/frustrated over labels
posted at 05:13 pm on 05-05-2009
Hi everyone;
I was diagnosed with AS when I was in college. (In college I was a psychology major.) I tend to agree that I'm probably in the autistic spectrum somewhere, but I don't know if I have AS, or if I have it to the severity that the therapist suggested.
First of all, in the DSM it state that if there is a cognitive or language learning delay, then it's not AS. When I was a kid, I had a language learning delay and started out in a special day class (a form of special ed) in K-2nd grade.
My therapist said that I have compassion but lack empathy, that I lack social understanding, and that I'm unstable. Though I feel that he overgeneralized and attributed too much of my bad behaviors to AS, rather than some conscious decisions I made. (I rarely lose my temper, but when I do lose it I get pissed. I was pissed off at my therapist because he kept on nagging me time after time to take antipsychotics to take care of an infatuation I had on someone when I was scared of the idea of taking psychiatric medications.)
On the other hand, I feel that my parents went to the other extreme by denying facing the possibility of me being autistic from what seems as much as possible. They used to tell me that when I was a baby I just didn't demand that much attention. Later on they took me out of special ed and put me into a regular school, blamed my odd behaviors on picking it up from special ed, and claimed that the school pscychologist said that I was autistic or retarded for the sake of making money. (They also took me to another psychologist who said that I was only developmentally delayed and made a successful suggestion of only teaching one language at a time instead of 2. So I don't know how much of their behavior was attributed to denial and how much of it was attributed to what they had been told) I had a much much harder time making friends at the regular school because I lacked knowledge of social norms and the children were a lot more narrow minded. In the back of my mind I had always known or felt that I was different from everyone else. And only recently I found out that I was kicked out of a regular preschool and put into a special ed one due to the fact I wasn't talking or socializing enough with my peers. I mentioned the term Pervasive Developmental Disorder with one of my parents, and they only said that the term was familiar. The idea of them knowing what I had and sweeping it under the rug of memory seems aggravating to me.
Also, I'm afraid that I couldn't convince my parents and sister that I'm autistic or at least in the autistic spectrum if I don't fit 100% of the criteria.
When I was younger I used to be more happy. But slowly over time, as my classmates got meaner, I also developed a bitter side to me too.
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