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nightbender
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i had my party
the other day
it went well
the other thing though is
my mom couldnt turn on the radio
the radio was clearly labeled
other day my mom was taking me to park
i said i wasnt really in controll of my life or had that much controll
and she scared me by saying the kinda stupid crap she and my dad had said i was liitle
whos controlling you whos controlling your life
thats just bad thinking and really immoral two
my dad picked me up for the group
i go to for some reason
he started telling me he regretted having kids
he then blamed me and my brother saying saying if he had known we couldnt have taken care of ourselfs he wouldhnt had us
think about that for sec
the assholes mind works like a reptile
thinks if your born one way thats the way you gonna be for the rest of your life and no change or improvement is possible
and certainly nothing like parenting would change anything or anything like taht
and it would mean that they expected little kids aspie or not to act like complete grownups |
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nightbender
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| Posted: Tue Nov 03, 2009 11:28 am Post subject: |
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the other things i remeber is that they always tried dragged hypothetical persons into discussions/arguments
what would the neighboors think/thats God punishing(stubbed my toe)/noooo doctor would agree with you/whos controlling you/threateing me with police as a kid |
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nightbender
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| Posted: Tue Nov 03, 2009 2:32 pm Post subject: |
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how you been glider
gongrads on your bday
thanks so much |
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just-me
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| Posted: Wed Nov 04, 2009 9:54 am Post subject: |
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HAPPY BIRTHDAY NIGHTBENDER AND GLIDER18!! 
I'm so sorry your birthday did not go so well nightbender. And I'm sorry your parents are not treating you well. they should be treating you with respect and certainly not threaten you or saying god is punishing you.
My back is doing better. all the walking at Disney helped it. so its not so bad.
I just hope your doing ok. keep us posted.
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glider18
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| Posted: Wed Nov 04, 2009 11:10 am Post subject: thank you |
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Thank you Nightbender and Just-me. These birthdays come along quite fast anymore it seems. So much has happened since my last birthday---my diagnosis and discovery of myself. And one of my sons was also diagnosed with AS this past summer.
I can't stress enough how much I want you to find your happiness and pathway in life Nightbender. It will happen. You have definitely had a challenging road, but it will get better. I didn't feel more comfortable with myself until my AS diagnosis at the age of 44---so it can take time to find yourself. At least you know about AS in your life---you are still young.
Best wishes my friend,
glider18
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nightbender
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| Posted: Wed Nov 04, 2009 1:27 pm Post subject: |
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| just-me wrote: | HAPPY BIRTHDAY NIGHTBENDER AND GLIDER18!!
I'm so sorry your birthday did not go so well nightbender. And I'm sorry your parents are not treating you well. they should be treating you with respect and certainly not threaten you or saying god is punishing you.
My back is doing better. all the walking at Disney helped it. so its not so bad.
I just hope your doing ok. keep us posted. |
that was stuff long ago
with god punishing you thing
my mom is better but she reverted to what was not helpful
though they do keep saying i did this to myself
im going out tonight and bowling
heres there thing
they give me things stuff buy stuff and some how think that makes up for or is a substitute for bad conduct and irresponsilbity
ex
yesterday i went to go vote
my dad picked me up to drive a couple hours
but while i was with him he telling me that if he had known before hand that he would had children that could not take care of of themselves he wouldnt have had them
again blaming me(also shows how his mind works thinks like a reptile, if your born or certain way your gonna be that way forever and no change or improvement is possible, that no parenting could change, and there fore if your not born perfect you must be mentally ill
so yeah it was great that he went out his way to take me somewhere but still was a jerk
thank you
i got a great gift today
i got my acces link(disablity transit) appeal and the interview was knocked out of the park
and most likely gonna get it
i went out with father and brother bowling it was ok
family went out to dinner
the converstation went nowhere
bro got upset and left early
i wasnt enthused |
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nightbender
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| Posted: Wed Nov 04, 2009 9:20 pm Post subject: |
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mom was crying
at dinner mydad claimed that he researched stuff to help me
he did not
he sat on his but and did nothing |
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nightbender
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| Posted: Thu Nov 05, 2009 3:54 am Post subject: |
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at dinner she said why dont you take an antidepressant if your so depressed, they have that many side effects(wrong), she has learned nothing
i was descrbing a problem with my brain being messed up and she said that stupid commet
im not depressed my brain is trashed
and before hand i metioned to my bro that i wasnt sure if i had taken my morning supplements and might have taken the pm instead to wich he said its all basically the same stuff
wich is wrong and also means he has not learned anyhting(he callls it vooodoodo) am and pm each contain a diffferent prescription medication wich has to be taken at the right time and cant be doubled up on and the naturals are also way different a
at dinner i was trying to talk about some stuff i was interested in to the best of my ability and my brother just decided to start making up crap about what i was talking about and just saying what i was saying in a mocking tone like that disproved it
and off course mom started saying that dont like certain talk show hosts wich i havent listend to in several years and who not pretty obvious now as full of it
though going through them was part of my progression(nohter obvious problem they have no sense of "time" no time urgency no ability to rember things in a proper order, what ever she can remeber is randomdly jumbled)
i said before going out ot dinner was problally not idea
it was good but
getting older being like this not good |
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nightbender
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| Posted: Thu Nov 05, 2009 7:18 pm Post subject: |
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nightbender
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| Posted: Sat Nov 07, 2009 4:16 pm Post subject: |
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i went to a movie today with my mom
instead of it being enjoyable it just hurt |
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just-me
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| Posted: Mon Nov 09, 2009 8:06 pm Post subject: |
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| nightbender wrote: | i went to a movie today with my mom
instead of it being enjoyable it just hurt |
I'm sorry your having such a hard time with things. i hope things get better for you.
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nightbender
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| Posted: Tue Nov 10, 2009 12:01 pm Post subject: |
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thanks
my thing is i dont thinkg i will be albe to get support anywhere
no one is answering posts anywhere nor peer lines or family freinds are gone |
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just-me
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I know what that is like. thats why I'm still here replying to your posts.
your problems are real, and very difficult! people find that daunting, and when they cant fix it they tend to go away. but that is NOT your fault.
Just remember none of this is your fault. and i know somehow, some way you'll find a solution to all these things. it may take years to fully solve it all, but time heals all. And in time you'll find solutions to these problems.
In the meantime ill be here as often as i can.
I think the only people who can understand what your going through is people who have been through something simmer or just as bad.
it tends to give you perspective on things.
I know what its like to have a bad parent and have no one to talk to and to be let down by people who are supposed to "help" you. but really don't care.
I know what its like. its better for me now , so now i help those i see who are in a jam and need help.
thats why i stay and post. i know you need people to talk to. i know you need help and advice. and i will offer as much as i can spare.
as always, i hope things improve.
don't lose hope!
There is sunshine at the end of this dark path you tread. hope is the light that guide's you through this darkness your going through. and it is hope that will help you find the sun. 
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nightbender
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| Posted: Fri Nov 13, 2009 11:03 am Post subject: |
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nightbender
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| Posted: Fri Nov 13, 2009 4:36 pm Post subject: |
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how you doing
let me take a turn helping you |
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