Ragtime wrote:
YES! I hate loud noise from children too much to have a child of my own. Part of the responsibility of parents is listening to loud, irrational noises, and that disqualifies me. (Note: I don't lament my childlessness at all. I completely lack the instinctive wish to be a parent, almost to a point that it scares me. I don't find the idea even slightly, slightly attractive. That can't be normal.)
Don't feel that you're abnormal.
Humans are not like other animals. For, say, a female cat, it's normal to be ruled by her hormones that are telling her to have a baby. For humans, it's different because we have much more of a conscious mind and personality.
No need to be scared of yourself. You are doing the adult and responsible thing by choosing not to have a child when you're not suited to one and do not wish for one. Anyone who tells you different, slap 'em (just messing:))
I also used to feel abnormal and I used to go about saying I wanted babies because other girls and young women did, so I understand. If I'm honest I even decided that I was going to get married and have babies when I was older, I was that determined to be normal. I'd force myself to be normal if it killed me.
I eventually got a bit more self awareness though and realized that wasn't a good thing.
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