I'm going to fail
I have a habit of always assuming the worst when it comes to grades. This time is no different. I'm going to do horribly on these finals. I'm terrified. I spoke with my psychiatrist about it. He just laughed at me! I guess I can understand why... more often than not I do this and end up getting an A. No, but this time I really mean it (of course, I always say that, too). I just feel like I'm so behind. Plus no one will take me seriously. Its making me feel crazy. Maybe I really am delusional.
Anyone else have this type of problem? I need to overcome this pre-test anxiety because its very counterproductive. I've been pacing and crying off and on all day.
I hate that. Even now, I'm on spring break, and I know that I don't need to do anything for my classes, but I can't help but to think that there's something I should be working on. I think it might have something to do with my freshman year. I was going to an extremely prestigious school, most of my classmates were planning on going to schools like Stanford and Yale. The work load was intense and the grading scale was harsh, I barely squeaked by with low C's, which is unusual for a student like me. No matter what I did it was never enough, although towards the end of the year I was able to start picking out my mistakes. Although that was two years ago, I still get the feeling that what I'm doing isn't good enough and I should try harder, but now that I'm going to an easier school I hardly have to try at all. The anxiety of failing is still there, but the reasons for it are not.
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I was terrified for two of my finals last semester. A very close friend of mine had died on Friday, and I had an 8am test on Monday, then a 10am test on Tuesday. And, I hadn't really been to either class for about two months. I somehow did fantastically on both (which were not easy tests, by any means); sometimes, miracles can happen
Quite contrastingly, I'm for-sure going to fail one of my classes this semester. The assignments were just a bunch of bureaucratic BS daily nonsense that I mostly didn't do, as opposed to tests that I could waltz my way through. Ironically, the class was an entirely extraneous upper level course that I took purely out of voluntary interest, and made utterly fantastic use of the content from. There needs to be a new grade designation for situations like this... I'm thinking 'EF' (for 'Epic Fail'). 'EF' would have no grade point average weight, because epic failing transcends the realm of quantifiable failure.
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I don't, becuase I lost just about all my edgucation through time, and lack of practice. I figured that since I have gotten both good and bad grades, and people still seem to see an idiot in me, that I might as well just try to answer the qestions with what I know.
I remember how tests in college were. It felt, for some strange reason, that some person was "smarter", despite the fact that they could have sped through it foolishly without thinking. GOOD LUCK!
the only way is to ask your teachers if your doing God Awful or not. But if you are failing terribly - remember that you have a disorder, and according to the law, they have to work with you to succeed, or you can sue them. Of course many people have done horribly in school and ended up being the most famous people of all time. Contrary to what everyone says - school work and studying is probably the most unimportant thing in the world.