Who_Am_I almost human


Joined: Aug 28, 2005 Age: 29 Posts: 10498 Location: My body is in Brisbane and my mind is in the gutter. :D
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Posted: Wed Mar 14, 2012 6:32 am Post subject: |
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| aussiebloke wrote: | | Who_Am_I wrote: | | WHY THE HELL DOES EVERY JOB NEED A DRIVER'S LICENCE? |
bogans |
Of course. The cause of many problems. _________________ Music Theory 101: Cadences.
Authentic cadence: V-I
Plagal cadence: IV-I
Deceptive cadence: V- ANYTHING BUT I !!!!
Beethoven cadence: V-I-V-I-V-V-V-I-I-I-I-I-I-I-I-I-I-I
-I-I-I-I-I-I-I-I! I! I! I I I |
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aussiebloke Phoenix


Joined: Oct 15, 2009 Age: 36 Posts: 3871
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Posted: Wed Mar 14, 2012 8:37 pm Post subject: |
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| blue_bean wrote: | I'll stop bothering to post if you stop bothering first.
*opens door* After you. |
Bye  _________________ Theirs a subset of America, adult males who are forgoing ambition ,sex , money ,love ,adventure to sit in a darkened rooms mastering video games - Suicide Bob |
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aussiebloke Phoenix


Joined: Oct 15, 2009 Age: 36 Posts: 3871
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Posted: Wed Mar 14, 2012 8:50 pm Post subject: |
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| Who_Am_I wrote: | | aussiebloke wrote: | | Who_Am_I wrote: | | WHY THE HELL DOES EVERY JOB NEED A DRIVER'S LICENCE? |
bogans |
Of course. The cause of many problems. |
editorialized version , yes.......
Don't get me started on the jobs no matter how menial and low paying it is "must have experience" what a joke I know it's not just me I have a Italian "friend" and he sees it to (his thinking of going back to Italy or Switzerland (because I keep telling him how unbogan it is )
In crazy person mode I ended up in my home village of 4000 and got offered 4 jobs full-time to! * with out trying or any experience. Bit hard to work when your fighting for your life (that's why I was on disability) stupid family.
*good luck trying to find a 'full time job" in the most un-secure work places /casual work force in the world a close 2 nd after Spain, and look what happened to their economy....
Conservatives blame clean energy for Spain's train wreck of an economy
Your looking for a job are you,you seem to struggle with this one yes? _________________ Theirs a subset of America, adult males who are forgoing ambition ,sex , money ,love ,adventure to sit in a darkened rooms mastering video games - Suicide Bob |
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mntn13 Phoenix


Joined: Jun 07, 2011 Posts: 1006
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Posted: Sun Mar 18, 2012 10:24 am Post subject: |
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| the pieces are going to fall wherever. done holding all this together. |
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886 Mongolian Platypus


Joined: Jan 16, 2008 Age: 23 Posts: 5270 Location: seattle
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Posted: Mon Mar 19, 2012 8:54 am Post subject: |
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Sleeping 4 hours, being awake 6, sleeping 4, being awake 6 is a cycle that is going to destroy what little remains of my brain.. _________________ If Jesus died for my sins, then I should sin as much as possible, so he didn't die for nothing. |
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puddingmouse cheesecake demolisher


Joined: Apr 25, 2010 Age: 26 Posts: 7028 Location: Mega City 3
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Posted: Wed Mar 21, 2012 6:56 am Post subject: |
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My face is all sore. _________________ The mess has ended. Go home in pieces. |
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puddingmouse cheesecake demolisher


Joined: Apr 25, 2010 Age: 26 Posts: 7028 Location: Mega City 3
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Posted: Wed Mar 21, 2012 4:56 pm Post subject: |
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I feel so fat and unattractive. I'm trying to lose weight, but keep getting very strong cravings. I look at other women and I hate myself. I like women, but I don't feel like I'll ever be good enough for one. I keep self-harming because it's the only thing that gives me any relief from how bad I feel. Nobody wants to listen to this self-pitying sh**. People get mad at me when I'm like this, so I have to hide it. _________________ The mess has ended. Go home in pieces. |
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LunaticOnTheGrass Snowy Owl


Joined: Mar 14, 2012 Age: 19 Posts: 136 Location: Under the Sun, in tune.
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Posted: Thu Mar 22, 2012 8:09 am Post subject: |
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Every day at School, I've been here for 12 hours. First my standard 6-7 hour School day with all associated homework, assignments, note-taking, and hamster-wheeling. Then I have Track practice for two hours, and I hate the sensation of my body sweating. It's just incredibly uncomfortable.
Then three hours of Musical Rehearsal. My director sounds like a combination of a vulture and a harpy when she squawks at us to shut up, stop talking, and practice "silent friendships" while we're there for three hours. That means no talking out of turn, whatsoever. Even I, as an Aspie, can't do that. Me plus 50 other High Schoolers on one stage suffering through tedium, rote repetition, and the stresses already experienced throughout the day are even more incapable of that feat. Of course, it doesn't matter, because clearly adults are capable of being entirely silent whenever they want to, right? I see this as an excellent foreshadowing of my life, where I'll have to shun everything I love just to "get by".
I'd use considerably more profanity and textual sobbing in this rant, but won't for the benefit of all ages reading it. Just... Yeah. I can't go on with this for two more days. |
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puddingmouse cheesecake demolisher


Joined: Apr 25, 2010 Age: 26 Posts: 7028 Location: Mega City 3
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Posted: Sun Mar 25, 2012 11:26 am Post subject: |
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I really hate myself. _________________ The mess has ended. Go home in pieces. |
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OuterBoroughGirl Deinonychus


Joined: Oct 03, 2009 Age: 32 Posts: 356
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Posted: Sun Mar 25, 2012 4:04 pm Post subject: |
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What does it say about me when I can be standing waiting in line at Barnes and Noble, someone calls next, I step up to the register, just as I'm approaching, the cashier walks away to talk to someone, and I'm standing there waiting, lost, confused, not knowing what to do or say, and then after a few minutes, I'm saying that I was waiting, she walked away, I don't know what to do, I'm confused, some other cashiers look at me, no one says or does anything, and then I wind up having to go to the back of the line, and go through the whole line all over again, because I'm just standing there ignored, forgotten, and apparently invisible, feeling completely lost and confused as a result? Still no one said anything. It's like I wasn't even there, like I don't exist.
I can't tolerate being treated this way anymore, like people don't see me, and too often when I speak, no one hears me, and if I am seen or heard, people just don't care. I don't seem worthy of anyone's notice. No matter what I say, what I do, it's never enough. I'm never enough. I can never make my presence carry enough weight to register with other people. It's like I'm not even human, like I'm not even anything, like I'm no one, nothing. I'm really, really, really tired of being this nonperson, this nothing, this useless waste of cells. I have no plans of offing myself, and even if I did, even if I tried something, I'd probably fsil at that, just like I do at everything else. Nothing to do but continue this pitiful excuse of an existence, passing unnoticed from one day to the next. I just don't know what to do anymore. I'm at a loss, as I have been for long time, and nothing's likely to change for me any time soon. Last night, a tooth literally crumbled in my mouth, because I haven't been to the dentist in many years. Seems I'm starting to disintegrate, to dissolve. I suppose that's about right. How long will it take before I dinitegrate completely? When it finally happens, will anyone care, or even notice? Probably not..... _________________ "And I find it kind of funny, I find it kind of sad./ The dreams in which I'm dying are the best I've ever had."
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puddingmouse cheesecake demolisher


Joined: Apr 25, 2010 Age: 26 Posts: 7028 Location: Mega City 3
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Posted: Mon Mar 26, 2012 5:21 am Post subject: |
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I feel like I've got a boulder on my back that I can't get rid of. I can't tell anyone about it, either. In order to help me, they'd have to suffer themselves because it's so heavy it'd be hard for them to move. _________________ The mess has ended. Go home in pieces. |
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Grete Phoenix


Joined: Feb 03, 2011 Age: 20 Posts: 1124
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Posted: Mon Mar 26, 2012 5:21 pm Post subject: |
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| Why my life sucks so much? Why do I have to ruin everything? |
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puddingmouse cheesecake demolisher


Joined: Apr 25, 2010 Age: 26 Posts: 7028 Location: Mega City 3
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Posted: Tue Mar 27, 2012 9:19 am Post subject: |
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I'm not outgoing enough, it's true. I don't even want to be more outgoing, though. I'd get more friends and find more work if I imposed myself on people. Talked more, listened less. My heart isn't in it, though, and it never will be. I can't go through my whole life being 'patient', 'understanding' and 'thoughtful'. No, I need to make more decibels for people to take me seriously. _________________ The mess has ended. Go home in pieces. |
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puddingmouse cheesecake demolisher


Joined: Apr 25, 2010 Age: 26 Posts: 7028 Location: Mega City 3
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Posted: Tue Mar 27, 2012 9:26 am Post subject: |
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In other news, I still really f***ing hate myself. _________________ The mess has ended. Go home in pieces. |
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CyclopsSummers tunnel visionary


Joined: Jun 22, 2008 Age: 26 Posts: 1902
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Posted: Wed Mar 28, 2012 7:45 am Post subject: |
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Phone calls suck and people are rude. And I thought I was the one with a poor understanding of what's polite and what isn't. _________________ clarity of thought before rashness of action |
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