Joined: Apr 02, 2012 Age: 21 Posts: 211 Location: Not in the US
Posted: Thu Apr 12, 2012 11:32 am Post subject:
I feel really messed with. It almost feels a bit like being bullied, because it's so respectless.
We had to do a big project for college. Basically my other 2 group members did nothing and I wrote the entire thing. It wasn't good enough (as I suspected, because I wrote A LOT the last day you had to turn it in, to get as much done as possible, quality then tends to be absent) so we had to do something else.
Comes down to this:
Write something about the subject you got, and then send it to the others so they can give feedback. It was a part of the task: giving and receiving feedback, part of the grade so if you miss it it's considered incomplete.
We agreed to have our things done thursday afternoon so that we could hand it in on friday, giving us an afternoon, evening and morning to write the feedback. I sent it to them this morning. One then replied by mail: We already handed it in. I asked: Why? Don't we need to do the feedback thing?==> ''We already did it. We wrote it for and about eachother, and handed it in because we weren't sure if you'd do the task. We handed it in already because we have to work today and tomorrow.'' ==>OMG. That's a blatant lie because we agreed to get things done, so naturally that means I'll do it and I even said it literally. And a couple of days before it was perfectly possible for them to work on it on thursday and friday.
This made me cry actually. They didn't send me their pieces, and what I sent them isn't to be critized. If I want to go to university next year I need to complete this. But how am I to do this if I don't have a complete thing to hand in?
How can you be so respectless, and really, WHY? WHY make me have to do this year again?! I hope this can get sorted. But how am I to interact with these people. Acting all normal and happy feels really strange.
This is unusual. This act was mean and low, didn't happen to anyone in my class. I feel a bit bullied again, like in elementary and sometimes in high school. Because I'm that exceptional one to be treated like sh** with this. I, the autistic one. (though they don't know)
The fear and feeling of humiliation and being bullied is a bit choking. A nasty feeling in my throat. I know it's not a real act of bullying but yet it strongly reminds me of it.
It gives me again that feeling that I'm strange, that people see me as a loser, or just different. That I'm a weird girl and even that I look ugly or weird, which really isn't the case. It just hurt my self esteem a bit.