YourMajesty
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I'm also afraid I'm getting depressed. I have nightmares every early morning, so I wake up feeling awful. This morning was horrid. I felt really depressed and went to college just to feel a lot of anxiety I didn't have before.
Yesterday I spoke with my physician because I'm so tired and sleepy all the time, that I almost HAVE to lie down, and that my eyelids get heavy. I thought, maybe my blood scales are messed up. I can get a blood test done, but he thinks it's due to emotional stress.
I often have negative thoughts. I try to combat them, but it doesn't help with the feeling. Sometimes I suddenly feel ok though. This morning was really bad and I felt like crying because the computer wasn't fast enough. This is really strange. Is it hormones? Dunno, but it scares me. I had to attend something and was actually afraid to go (though I went). After I got home, things got a bit better.
But that awful feeling out of nothing, I don't understand....I hope I can prevent a depression. That I can fight it quickly enough. |
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YourMajesty
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| Posted: Thu Apr 12, 2012 12:04 pm Post subject: |
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| PLUS the stuff that happened today really makes it better.... |
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puddingmouse
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Location: Mega City 3
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I always have to take the bins out for the whole block of flats. Plastic milk cartons DO NOT count as food waste, just because they once held food. Chicken bones are not made of plastic and neither are newspapers. If you're going to throw furniture away, hire a f***ing skip. I DO NOT appreciate furniture in front of the entrance. I DO NOT appreciate cardboard boxes left in front of the doorway that NOBODY except me will fold up and recycle. I HATE folding up massive, thick cardboard as much as anyone. I also do not appreciate rubbish bags lying around the entrance because you couldn't fit them into a bin.
If I don't do it, no-one does and the bins never get emptied. I don't pay my council tax to cover for other people's laziness and inability to read the recycling leaflets. I'm sure the council writes them in your language, whatever it is. They're mostly pictures, anyway.
It's normally not this bad, but it's particularly bad this week because one couple moved out and filled the bins up. I decided that I couldn't get anything else in the bins, so I kept all the plastic and paper and only threw out food waste because it would go off and smell. I appreciate other people are not as conscientious as me, and that they wanted to chuck their sh** out like normal. That I understand. General waste only gets collected once a fortnight and it is kind of gross having it lying around your flat. I just got particularly sick of being the one who takes the bins out, because on this occasion, it was particularly overflowing and gross and full of rotten fruit and rancid milk.
I feel like my life's destiny is to pick up after other people's mess, literally and figuratively.
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mntn13
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| Posted: Thu Apr 12, 2012 5:01 pm Post subject: |
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| as i figured but can't be ready for the hammer hits a shattering blow and without integrity the pieces are static. |
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ReaperKnight
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Age: 14
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| Half of yesterday I didn't know what was happening, half of today I don't know what's happening, Hannah had a seizure, I feel like sh*t, and I have the world's most stressy parent nagging me constantly. Fml. |
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metaldanielle
Bottom of the totem pole
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So my younger brother is in college. I didn't go, I still live with them and have no job. My parents treat him better than me because of it.
So last summer he interned at my dad's company. His boss was a nasty man, who harassed him and singled him out and yelled at him for nothing. So at the end of his internship, (He waited til the end because he was being harassed so bad he feared retaliation.) my brother turned him in for harassment. They promised him they would investiate it. So my brother applied for an internship this summer and found out that he wouldn't be hired. His previous boss had totally pinned everything on my brother and made up lies about how he was a bad employee. My brother really needed the money. As a previous intern, he would have gotten hired back otherwise and he was really needing the money.
So now my parents are all sypathetic. Mom posts encouraging things on FB, Dad tells me about how my bro could use something good to happen. BUT! I have been the victim of similar and even worse situations all throughout my life. My parents ALWAYS blamed me for it!  They treat me like absolute crap! But just because my brother moved out and went to collage, he is deserving of encouragement! I don't think so! The horrible part is I probably would have went to collage if they hadn't crippled me (not physically) with their abuse!!! And of course they deny that too! |
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puddingmouse
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I wish my bf would take more interest in me physically. He never feels well enough.
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YourMajesty
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| metaldanielle wrote: | So my younger brother is in college. I didn't go, I still live with them and have no job. My parents treat him better than me because of it.
So last summer he interned at my dad's company. His boss was a nasty man, who harassed him and singled him out and yelled at him for nothing. So at the end of his internship, (He waited til the end because he was being harassed so bad he feared retaliation.) my brother turned him in for harassment. They promised him they would investiate it. So my brother applied for an internship this summer and found out that he wouldn't be hired. His previous boss had totally pinned everything on my brother and made up lies about how he was a bad employee. My brother really needed the money. As a previous intern, he would have gotten hired back otherwise and he was really needing the money.
So now my parents are all sypathetic. Mom posts encouraging things on FB, Dad tells me about how my bro could use something good to happen. BUT! I have been the victim of similar and even worse situations all throughout my life. My parents ALWAYS blamed me for it! They treat me like absolute crap! But just because my brother moved out and went to collage, he is deserving of encouragement! I don't think so! The horrible part is I probably would have went to collage if they hadn't crippled me (not physically) with their abuse!!! And of course they deny that too! |
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puddingmouse
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I haven't been able to even touch him for the past few day, due to his eczema.
In other news, my social skills really suck and I still do that thing of making too many generalisations.
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ZX_SpectrumDisorder
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Location: Ireland
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| Posted: Fri Apr 20, 2012 5:54 am Post subject: |
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| Why do I have to be everybody's Dr Phil and yet no-one can help me, or give enough of a sh** to intervene and mediate for me when I have a problem! |
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identity
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Age: 29
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Location: South West UK
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| Posted: Fri Apr 20, 2012 2:57 pm Post subject: |
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| Upset, tired, angry, guilty and frustrated. Plus don't feel like I belong here. |
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puddingmouse
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I feel really bad. I can't think of anything else to say.
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CockneyRebel
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Joined: Jul 18, 2004
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Location: In a quiet and peaceful garden, where gentle Mick Avory-like Sweet Peas grow.
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Stepping Stones has lost its lustre again. Again! That stupid Rhonda has gotten to me again. I was going there for two weeks after a long break, just for this to happen. Than yesterday some drug dealer b***h who goes there patronized me by telling me in a snotty way that my best friend can't drive me everywhere. I know that he can't drive me everywhere and I wish that I didn't tell that Rhonda b***h that drug dealer b***h was getting to me. Now Rhonda is being a b***h to be and telling be to toughen up. I said to that woman over the phone, "So you want me to be a b***h!" I'm not going back to the way that I was before I got my life back on track. As far as I'm concerned, Rhonda and that drug dealer b***h can both suck an egg and go poo.
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Inyanook
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Well...blurgle.
I'm a pretty emotional person, but sometimes I get really, really rational and distanced in order to work with something or deal with something. After an extended period of time all it takes is one tiny little unexpected trigger and my usual emotional responses go KERBLAMMO, all at once.
I didn't even realise I was doing it until now, but here we are. Hi, emotions! Please stop being all overwhelming and smothery. I prefer it when you happen one at a time.
EDIT: Oh my gosh. This has turned into a really full-on anxiety attack, complete with chest pain. I haven't had this happen for ages.
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turtle_asperger
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Location: British Columbia
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| Posted: Sun Apr 22, 2012 2:37 pm Post subject: yep hear ya |
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| I didn't get invited to my friend's bday part |
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