kirayng
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I'm sure if my parents died and my husband left me I would go through with what I've always wanted to do.
Why? That's my constant question... why? There are no answers that satisfy. There are only more questions to ask. |
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minotaurheadcheese
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| I regularly experience suicidal ideation. I have made several serious attempts in the past. Their failure is a result of poor judgment and happenstance, not a testament to my lack of conviction. Sometimes the difficulty of living as a person like me in a world like this is simply more painful than I can bear. |
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Luska
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| Unfortunately a lack of friends and meaningful relationships plus autistic traits (and as high functioning people we are aware of it) mean that we are all the more likely to commit suicide. |
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Sweetleaf
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| skribble wrote: | to @lDub @j-greens @sweetleaf
i was having a very bad week last week n thinking about it so much, hence my posting.
but certainly still feel the "common" thing here with u guys.
am trying to put it aside though - but yea, like@sweetleaf ppl still "want"/need me here,
and "getting rid" of oneself isnt exactly an easy choice plus act to pull off, as easy as it may sound.
Hope ur doing well at the moment. take care. hope to hear frm u soon |
I don't really get why people say 'suicide is the easy way out'....that makes hardly any sense to me. So yeah I would agree its not exactly an easy choice at all.
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caveman2
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| Posted: Wed May 02, 2012 1:47 pm Post subject: It is the hard way out. |
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Such idiots.
I wouldn't wish real depression on anyone, however, anyone who says something stupid like "it is the easy way out" just has not had a very serious depression, that is one thing I am fairly sure about.
I shouldn't say stupid, ignorant is more to the point.
They are not idiots either, I just over react when I see something like that on this forum, of all places.
Saying it is the easy way out is much worst than just listening to what is said and they thinking about it, that is more to the point. |
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caveman2
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Suicidal ideation is just that, the idea of suicide.
Please don't confuse that with the earnest desire to end the pain of depression.
I suppose every thinking person from Hamlet on has had the idea of suicide occur to them with more or less thought or even study resulting. |
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Sweetleaf
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| caveman2 wrote: | Suicidal ideation is just that, the idea of suicide.
Please don't confuse that with the earnest desire to end the pain of depression.
I suppose every thinking person from Hamlet on has had the idea of suicide occur to them with more or less thought or even study resulting. |
Exactly there is a very real difference between entertaining the thought of suicide in general because it enters your mind...and being in so much pain you just can't see any other way out. Hell its not even about wanting to die its about wanting to end the pain at least in my experiance.
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jwag
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| Posted: Wed May 02, 2012 2:21 pm Post subject: thank you |
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| I thought I was the only one I found out three weeks ago and I see the world in a new way now. |
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Suspie
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I think I remember reading about her suicide, she used the bag method. |
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Suspie
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Speaking for myself I have been suicidal since I was 12. I remember asking my mother even, "if I killed myself would it affect you badly?" and funny enough she replied "yes, but I would get over it".
I used to be a member of ASH (alt.suicide.holiday) for years, you could say that suicide methods were a special subject of mine, I know of tons of them, height and weight ratios for jumping, poisons and how they work, medical ways, suicide by cop, the thousand cuts and many many more. lol I am a walking suicide encyclopedia.
Has anybody seen the documentary The Bridge? It's available on youtube. It's people committing suicide jumping off Golden Gate Bridge.
I am even considering suicide today, my life is hell, no job, no friends, no money, no boyfriend, nothing. Everything I do is wrong. Everything!!
My mother pays my rent and she says she can't keep paying it, and I don't want her paying it anyway. I don't mean I want to kill myself today, I mean, I am thinking about it a lot today again.
In a way I should do it in order to gain some dignity, like how people in Japan committ Harakiri, to save face. Apparently in old Japan women would kill themselves by biting their tongues!! ouch! I guess they bled to death that way. Anyway don't get me started or I will start passionately typing about suicide on here and it would be a very lengthy post.
Oh and also, haha, I can't stop now, watching Jeb Corliss free jumping with his squirrel suit (he is my new obsession), has made me feel stronger, and less fearful about such matters. In theory he committs suicide for a living, they way he keeps jumping into the void from tops of mountains, the eiffel tower, golden gate bridge, hotel rooms etc OK I will shut up now lol |
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PastFixations
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I believe it's more to do with thinking of suicide rather than actually going through with it.
Most of which can be the cause of abuse, trauma, depression and plenty of other emotions I did not mention.
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redrobin62
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| I've been dead by my own hands. I washed down 48 sleeping pills with beer back in 1992. I was 30 at the time and was wondering how I even made it to 30. I feel really really bad when I read about being suicide, or people attempting suicide, or people even contemplating it. I spent two months in a psych hospital after that. The world kept on turning and it didn't matter one ounce that I'd try to take myself out. Yeah, we're all gonna die anyway. There's no rush. Sometimes - actually, ALL the time - I wish I had the magic words that would keep someone from leaping off a bridge. There are no magic words, no saving grace. I sure as hell don't want to be that guy standing on the edge again. I could only hope othes take my lead. |
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auntblabby
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| Suspie wrote: | | I think I remember reading about her suicide, she used the bag method. |
gosh  where did you find that out? |
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auntblabby
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| redrobin62 wrote: | | I spent two months in a psych hospital after that. |
would you be willing to describe what the experience of being in a mental hospital was for you? the closest i came to that was that when i was in the army one of my jobs was to accompany/monitor pregnant patients who were kept on the psych ward, i was locked in that particular room with the patient until the end of my shift. when i was much younger i used to believe that the only proper place for one such as myself, was in the psych hospital, i felt totally out of place in the world at large. i felt more often than not, that the positions should've been switched, that I shoulda been the patient locked inside. |
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Trainbuff
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I saw that documentary, The Bridge that was mentioned by Suspie, that documentary is a personal favorite of mine, I just hope that those people got knocked unconscious when they hit the water rather than suffer extreme physical pain until they finally passed.
What's sad is that they never found the bodies of some of the jumpers. 
I'm not sure if I replied to the Original question asked in this thread or not (I forgot).
But I would say yes, lack of friends or a S/O, being called a creep, the R word, terrible social skills, AS usually brings Anxiety & Depression along with it, trouble finding employment, trouble getting on SSI/disability, etc who would want to live with having to deal with all that Negativity?
Its very hard to survive in this world without good social skills, it sucks. |
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