PastFixations
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First things first...
I am in the most darkest place I have been in EVER.
I was left alone in my home (still am btw.) and just carried on with what I was doing and due to a lot of what was said before being left on my own.
I literally thought of suicide... I broke down etc. and I went downstairs and picked a knife up... I noticed that when I did, I had no reaction or break down.
I didn't cut myself or anything but it felt so weird like I possibly could have done since I did not react to it.
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BuyerBeware
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| Posted: Sun May 06, 2012 6:35 am Post subject: |
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That's pretty common, actually.
Please don't do it.
What's up??
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Declension
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| Posted: Sun May 06, 2012 6:54 am Post subject: |
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PastFixations
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| Posted: Sun May 06, 2012 6:54 am Post subject: |
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Well considering I also have dyspraxia (I'd read up on that by the way.) which limits me as much if not more than my HFA.
Just feels like I'm a lost cause and can't really do anything to benefit anyone at this moment in time.
The problem is I know how to live due to the HFA but I can't function correctly because of the dyspraxia.
I don't really know anyone that has both like in my case.
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PastFixations
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| Posted: Sun May 06, 2012 8:04 am Post subject: |
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Not on my own now but I tried saying to my mum but she doesn't want to hear it. Could be because I've said it before and it's only been words but now I think I'm being shut out.
Also which is true is that she has to do a lot... she wanted me to do things for myself which if you read about dyspraxia is not really possible for a lot of people.
That and HFA is just... I can't even explain what it is really like.
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lundygirl
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| Posted: Sun May 06, 2012 11:07 am Post subject: |
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This may sound obvious, but have you tried doing a search on WP for dyspraxia? There are other members here who also have dyspraxia, and you may find it helpful to read their comments etc on the subject.
As I understand it, it's not unusual for people with autism to have some level of dyspraxia - it can range from clumsiness to significant problems with co-ordination. So please don't feel that you are alone and have to cope with it on your own. |
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PastFixations
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| Posted: Sun May 06, 2012 12:11 pm Post subject: |
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| lundygirl wrote: | This may sound obvious, but have you tried doing a search on WP for dyspraxia? There are other members here who also have dyspraxia, and you may find it helpful to read their comments etc on the subject.
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Really? I haven't noticed anyone with dyspraxia on WP.
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| Posted: Sun May 06, 2012 10:47 pm Post subject: |
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{{{{{awkward aspie hugs}}}}} sorry to hear you are having suicidal impulses.
if you search dyspraxia you'll see there have been threads about it, though nothing too recent. you could start a new thread about it and i'm sure people will come out of the woodwork.
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| Posted: Mon May 07, 2012 3:56 am Post subject: |
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| Well I don't know what dyspraxia is, but I definitely feel for you. Try to do activities by yourself, and call people. I mean if they're not calling you it doesn't have to mean they forgot about you. There might be other reasons for that. So try to initiate contact with people. I've been through that kind of thing and I sure as hell couldn't go through it without my friends. |
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