Hello

YagamiLight · Emu Egg Joined: May 26, 2012 Age: 25 Posts: 3

Yeah... So where to begin.
Im 24 and live in a small town in West Virginia. I have nothing but failed relationships and a two year old son who is probably the only reason I decide to stick around. I am currently unemployed (again) and living alone (again). I get to keep my super cool son one day a week. He is extremely smart for his age and I am so proud of him. He just turned 2 this month and he can form his own sentences an know what they mean, he can count to 10, and he can sing his ABCs and only miss a couple letters but it seems to be because he gets in a hurry. He even knows a whole deck of flash cards for ages 4+ (Animals, Shapes, etc.)

I have friends I guess but im not super close with anyone. My first real relationship lasted 4 years and was with the mother of my child. Ive gotten close to one other girl since then and we were together about half a year. She moved in because of circumstances and it ended just last week. I have been having a hard time dealing with it because I actually felt/feel something for her and that never happens...ever... It was actually because of this breakup I basically posted my life story on a popular "answers" site and someone noticed that I might have AS. This is something I had never heard of and it really made sense when I looked into it. I have been doing some research for a few days and taking tests and it just clicks. At first I was kinda horrified to be honest. It's kinda crappy that it cant be "fixed", so I guess I shouldnt look at it as something thats wrong with me or that I need to fix it.

Ive always felt like I have had to study social situations and mimic what ive learned to handle them properly. I actually have to think about what someones doing with their body language, tone, etc, or else I miss it completely and im just way off base. Ive never been able to empathize properly either. I just tell people what I think they want to hear, but I try to put my own spin on what im saying so I dont seem fake. Ive always been brutally honest with my opinions and some people respect that, but really I dont think they do sometimes (Especially women, oh god the horror stories).

I spent about 5 years of my life (13-18) with an intense obsession with computers. I learned a list of programming and scripting languages, several operating systems, and even hardware. Basically I can do anything with a computer, if not immediately then give me a couple days. I even got into designing hardware for a while. I wrote a PC operating system one time. It only took a few commands and had a pong game I wrote on it, but it was all just for fun. I still like to write small 2D video games for fun from time to time. More recently I have picked up an interest in guitar. Anyone thats been around me since I picked it up about 4 months ago has said I have progressed extremely quickly. I have friends that have played for years and I can do stuff that they cant. I am also picking up a talent for playing things I hear without looking at the tabs for it. I guess not everyone can do this and I think that maybe its a bit of the sound sensitivity that can occur in some aspies. Ive always had better hearing than most people. If I ever heard nothing at all I would probably freak out because its never happened. Theres always a noise somewhere.

Well anyways I just thought it would be nice to be part of a community of people that may be able to understand me a little better. I havnt told anyone that I think I have this yet. Really I get depressed sometimes and id like to have a place where I can talk about my problems and be accepted. So is it cool if I hang out here for a bit?