namaste
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my genetic structuring is such that both my parents and their sides of family had mental history
suicides, divorce are common phenomenon
its difficult to even tolerate my parents for 2 seconds because they are abusive, voilent etc
i am cut off from my cousins actually they are anti social
i dont have much of social life
at workplace i sit alone most of the time
i feel i might end up in asylum or mental institution in the long run
anyone else feels the same.........is any other aspie ended up there
due to loneliness, isolation etc
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Yeah sometimes I feel that way, but I don't know that it will be in the long run. I'm thinking its not unlikely that I could end up in a psych ward for at least a short amount of time if I cannot bring my stress level down which is unlikely since my life is kind of going downhill, not that it was ever really going uphill...but such is life.
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Been down that road, and it's not a good memory. I was depressed, suicidal, and probably psychotic at the time so I definitely needed help. I resented being there though, felt completely overwhelmed and refused to speak. They ended up just cutting me loose when the insurance ran out.
My mom ended up in the same place a couple of years after that. She had an episode where she thought everyone was trying to kill her, packed us up to a battered women's shelter and then to her parents. I was later told it had something to do with her thyroid not working.
Just keep reaching out, and find whoever you can to talk to, either personally or professionally. I've been where you're at, you just have to stay strong. |
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namaste
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| MjrMajorMajor wrote: | Been down that road, and it's not a good memory. I was depressed, suicidal, and probably psychotic at the time so I definitely needed help. I resented being there though, felt completely overwhelmed and refused to speak. They ended up just cutting me loose when the insurance ran out.
My mom ended up in the same place a couple of years after that. She had an episode where she thought everyone was trying to kill her, packed us up to a battered women's shelter and then to her parents. I was later told it had something to do with her thyroid not working.
Just keep reaching out, and find whoever you can to talk to, either personally or professionally. I've been where you're at, you just have to stay strong. |
its not a smooth road
and whenever i have to socialize the problem aggravates
when i am left alone i am not happy but in others company i am sidelined
and judged or cornered
its depressing and family is supposed to be the strength and support unfortunately in my case
family is the biggest drawback and in long run i don't know where i will be headed towards.
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i just got out of the mental hospital for really bad depression and psychosis
i tell you what they treated me like sh** in there
1 thing it made me is made me more aggressive
but more mentally disorganized
seroquel has got me dizzy 24/7 now
i dont know how else to stop the psychosis because my "asperger" diagnosis any mentioning of psychotic symptoms are completely ignored. im starting to think i have schizo-affective caused by prema birth/dev delays not asperger..
but you know compared to me, or us, there are people in there A LOT worse off
its no place for sensitive people
we need time alone and all the chaos in that f**** place still has my head spinning |
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| i don't think i will no'r do i think you should i hope that something big will hapen soon and somehow people with aspergers syndrome will be incorporated into the new world. might sound foolish to think something big will happen but if you look at all the movement going on in the world it seams strange to think nothing will happen. |
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namaste
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| archraphael wrote: | i just got out of the mental hospital for really bad depression and psychosis
i tell you what they treated me like sh** in there
1 thing it made me is made me more aggressive
but more mentally disorganized
seroquel has got me dizzy 24/7 now
i dont know how else to stop the psychosis because my "asperger" diagnosis any mentioning of psychotic symptoms are completely ignored. im starting to think i have schizo-affective caused by prema birth/dev delays not asperger..
but you know compared to me, or us, there are people in there A LOT worse off
its no place for sensitive people
we need time alone and all the chaos in that f**** place still has my head spinning |
its quite scary to hear that.
i have been trying to control myself.
but i am weird and different
i noticed that i laugh at seemingly any silly joke
whereas others don't
i have weird people for company and normal people won't associate with me
this weirder people are really really out of the box and insane
i don't have any choice but to tolerate them
everything is headed towards dead end
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archraphael
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| namaste wrote: | | archraphael wrote: | i just got out of the mental hospital for really bad depression and psychosis
i tell you what they treated me like sh** in there
1 thing it made me is made me more aggressive
but more mentally disorganized
seroquel has got me dizzy 24/7 now
i dont know how else to stop the psychosis because my "asperger" diagnosis any mentioning of psychotic symptoms are completely ignored. im starting to think i have schizo-affective caused by prema birth/dev delays not asperger..
but you know compared to me, or us, there are people in there A LOT worse off
its no place for sensitive people
we need time alone and all the chaos in that f**** place still has my head spinning |
its quite scary to hear that.
i have been trying to control myself.
but i am weird and different
i noticed that i laugh at seemingly any silly joke
whereas others don't
i have weird people for company and normal people won't associate with me
this weirder people are really really out of the box and insane
i don't have any choice but to tolerate them
everything is headed towards dead end |
youll be fine
what really had me cracking was delusional thinking that was leading to self-hating extreme depression to suicidal ideations...
if my family knew what i know.... extremeely f**** up... people just write me off as crazy and delusional to cover up their masonic sacrificial secret society bs going on at my uni...
they have a f**** lawsuit coming their way.. |
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thedaywalker
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| i always thought that insanity was like a explotion into the realm of possibilities, far from a dead end. |
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Sweetleaf
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| namaste wrote: | | archraphael wrote: | i just got out of the mental hospital for really bad depression and psychosis
i tell you what they treated me like sh** in there
1 thing it made me is made me more aggressive
but more mentally disorganized
seroquel has got me dizzy 24/7 now
i dont know how else to stop the psychosis because my "asperger" diagnosis any mentioning of psychotic symptoms are completely ignored. im starting to think i have schizo-affective caused by prema birth/dev delays not asperger..
but you know compared to me, or us, there are people in there A LOT worse off
its no place for sensitive people
we need time alone and all the chaos in that f**** place still has my head spinning |
its quite scary to hear that.
i have been trying to control myself.
but i am weird and different
i noticed that i laugh at seemingly any silly joke
whereas others don't
i have weird people for company and normal people won't associate with me
this weirder people are really really out of the box and insane
i don't have any choice but to tolerate them
everything is headed towards dead end |
I tend to always feel paranoid and try to control myself in public so I don't seem 'too' mental or anything, but it seems to just get more and more difficult. I also have weird people for friends, but part of it is me not wanting to associate with 'normal' people just as they don't want to associate with me. To me things feel as though they are headed towards a dead end as well...so I am tempted to just jump on the crazy train(yes like the Ozzy song) I mean what else is left at this point?
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ShamanicExperience2
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hahaha i know what u mean, sometimes it feels like thats exactly where ill end up and sometimes i wonder whos gonna put me there, someone else, or myself just to get away from everyone and everything.
Ive been taken to a mental hospital once for a 3 day evalutaion and it wasnt that bad (then again i was a minor at the time) that concluded i was chronic paranoid schizophrenic cuz i argued with my parents and im mexican, thus i was somehoe having delusional thoughts (that i shouldnt get yelled at and hit for no good reason were my thoughts, real delusional huh?)
and well they let me go after the mandatory 3 days cuz they had nothing on me for real......but that place sucked as far as help goes....even the orderlys told me to just act normal, just pretend ur getting better cuz its worse if u actually needed help cuz they didnt do much for that. I feel like id go to one yet id feel i may go more insane within one :/ |
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namaste
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@sweetleaf
why u don't want to associate with normal people
i would love to associate with them
provided they entertain me. 
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| namaste wrote: | @sweetleaf
why u don't want to associate with normal people
i would love to associate with them
provided they entertain me. |
Well lets just put it this way growing up it wasn't the abnormal people doing the bullying, it was the normal people. So I don't feel safe around them...they can be pretty nasty to people who don't fit in. Also they don't typically entertain me and I don't really have much in common with them.
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archraphael
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| Sweetleaf wrote: | | namaste wrote: | @sweetleaf
why u don't want to associate with normal people
i would love to associate with them
provided they entertain me. |
Well lets just put it this way growing up it wasn't the abnormal people doing the bullying, it was the normal people. So I don't feel safe around them...they can be pretty nasty to people who don't fit in. Also they don't typically entertain me and I don't really have much in common with them. |
true. i fit in the most with my closest friend(s) and other (mental) patients in the hospital... "normal" people activities/gatherings always made me feel more depressed/distorted..
but beiong around people i 'click' with make me feel so happy inside |
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Sweetleaf
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| archraphael wrote: | | Sweetleaf wrote: | | namaste wrote: | @sweetleaf
why u don't want to associate with normal people
i would love to associate with them
provided they entertain me. |
Well lets just put it this way growing up it wasn't the abnormal people doing the bullying, it was the normal people. So I don't feel safe around them...they can be pretty nasty to people who don't fit in. Also they don't typically entertain me and I don't really have much in common with them. |
true. i fit in the most with my closest friend(s) and other (mental) patients in the hospital... "normal" people activities/gatherings always made me feel more depressed/distorted..
but beiong around people i 'click' with make me feel so happy inside |
I'd rather have a terrible life with people in it I can relate to, than have a great life and have to deal with complete lonliness and putting on a fake smile around fake people.
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