Dude! Yes! Fetching nonstop, I have zero friends and everybody ends up rejecting me, pretty soon even everybody on this site will hate me in due time, it happens all the time. It is because I speak my mind, people are afraid of sincerity. I am dogmatic too but I try to see everything in other people's eyes and when I think I got it all worded right, IT NEVER COMES OUT RIGHT ANYWAYS! Honestly, I don't understand, I view myself as indifferent when I'm listening to someone else but when I speak, for some reason I am always wrong. I try and I try to no avail, experimenting with my words every time I talk to someone or type something. I am forced to conclude that my words are cursed, everything I speak gets criticized or just blows away in the wind. Like Eminem says, "Have you ever been hated or discriminated against? I have, I've been protested and demonstrated against." endless cycle. Some of my family lives up in Park City and guess what, almost everybody hates me, it's mostly girls. I just, I think that women should show more respect to men but hell I don't know, maybe I'm wrong I always am, maybe men are supposed to suck up to women but I would not know, I thought I knew but after this conversation I had with my mom she broke down all my beliefs my mind fell apart, I almost started sobbing because everything I thought was collapsed and turns out it was ALL wrong. I need something but I don't know what it is, I cannot trust myself. It is so frustrating, it seems absolutely legit to me and I can't possibly think of an alternative way. When I write down all the syndromes and symptoms on a list it is so overwhelming. I am sorry this is so intense or whatever it might be. What is wrong with me.
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There's got to be a God somewhere, someone who cares. I stay on bended knee and hope the Father answers prayers.