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Darialan
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Location: Coudersport, PA

19 Apr 2014, 8:50 pm

So, I've been on my own since the first of this month and I've dealt with it fairly well, however being that it's my first month and I'm on disability, it seems that my budgeting didn't do well the first month, however it seems to be well enough that I have nothing I need to pay for till I get any more money. I'm just worried that despite the fact that I have done a budget spreadsheet that should do me fairly well, I still have some fears. I did notice that my FS went down, so I worked in more money for food, but on paper (computer screen) it looks just fine, I just never know how well things like that work out in real life.

I've had jobs in the past with met failures that's why I'm on SSD(etc). It would be better if I knew someone I could trust to talk about this with irl, but ummm, social problems have come in the way all my life and despite my therapy, showing my social anxiety isn't bad, now, I still have a tendency not to approach anyone new. There are just a few in town from a group I go to, but I just don't... I don't get close to anyone anyway. So even though I have a few friends, only one in this town, I can't bring myself to dump my problems on anyone. I guess when I'm in group, I'd do it out of desperation and it wouldn't be the first time I've come clean about my fears in tears (or no tears, but expressly showing a lot of fear anyway). I just can't do this out in the real world. It just doesn't come natural to me and if I do, it feels weird, awkward, and bleh. I dunno. I want to be closer to people, but it just feels (in my mind) kinda yuck to me? I'm not sure if that's the word I want to use. Not able to describe the feeling.

I guess that's another subject, but I suppose it's the core of it now that I'm typing this out. But I still worry a little about my finances, despite how they are on screen. Could be a lot going on besides money fear, so I guess that's keeping me from thinking logically. I had a day where the last few hours of group and onto the van where I was paranoid about people that would be living there. Long story. Thought I was being followed and some other weird thing. But I was talked down by someone on the van home. But paranoia about the neighborhood really hasn't been an issue for me since then. I don't know what else to say, so I'll talk more later.



AutisticGuy1981
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19 Apr 2014, 9:03 pm

When I first got my own place at 32 I found my money easily vanished but only because there was so much stuff I needed to buy.

I'm on disability benefits too but I'd imagine it's a lot different in the UK because we get more money than a lot of people who work minimum wage and low end jobs, also being aspie means we don't tend to spend much compared to regular joes.

once you get properly settled and really only need to pay for electric/heating/food/internet/cable/phone then you will likely find yourself having a couple of thousand sat in the bank waiting for a rainy day :wink:

We can compare how much we get in benefits via pm if you want :lol:



Darialan
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19 Apr 2014, 9:12 pm

Well, I did get a little over 100 dollars of stuff I needed, too. 80 of it was for... Humidifer, blood pressure checker, first aid kit and so that was all at the pharmacy.