Are you guys happy?

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I would definitely say there's a correlation between depression/anxiety and ASD, which isn't too hard to conceptualize given the social isolation and difficulty performing socially-related tasks.

I didn't mean to say there wasn't. I was only talking about my own experience, but I can see that my first sentence was misleading and seems more like a statement. I should have added 'in my case'.

I guess that some days are better than others. I mean I know I'm a good kid, I work hard in school, will be 27 with my Masters next year, but other days I feel worthless.

In many ways, my job problems and my female problems are almost exactly alike. I don't feel good enough for either, I constantly want what I can't have, and I can't stop thinking about them.

I do feel like there are positives in me that I assumed were "normal" that it turns out the rest of the world doesn't have. Many NT procrastinate and are not good with time management. I'm also saddened by the seemingly inconsiderate way some of my friends communicate with me. There's a girl I like that lives across from me, our doors about 5-6 feet away. We've been friends a few months, albeit more of a distance thing over the summer. She sees the messages I've sent her. (Nothing too big, maybe once or twice a week on average) and I never get a response. Just the other day she said that she meant to get back to me (I never brought it up in person, she saw me and said that) and she knows that I have a crush on her and that I want to talk to her but she seems completely ambivalent to my entire existence.

My point is that I would always respond or say something like "hey, I'm at work, I'll get back to you when I get back" but that's my business school background I guess. I just feel like I'm trying too hard for other people that aren't trying for me. And that people just aren't considerate of my feelings, time, or efforts. It's almost as if I'm suffering doing the right thing so that they can live happy immoral lives.

Oh well, I have a jar of Nutella and my Taylor Swift playlist to take care of my tears tonight. I just wish that my friends knew how many tears I've cried.

Definitely not happy and wish i didn't have AS.

Generally I am not so happy most of the time. There are a lot of times where I feel like a lost cause due to my lack of social understanding and inability of forming close friendships with others. However I am an isolationist and can deal without having friends or a relationship.

I feel like that's the part keeping me from happiness. I feel like I'm weird enough that I can't get women to like me enough to be in a relationship, but I also have feelings and therefore want what I cannot have. I wish that I could EITHER be an autistic robot that lives alone, or a normal person that has friends and gets married with kids and lives the normal life. I feel like half of me wants one thing and half of me wants another whereby I'll always be miserable whether I'm in a relationship or not.

I understand how you feel because, in a way, I feel the same. Actually other than the fact I cope with it, it pretty much is the same. However I think that if you found someone who deeply understands how you operate, how your mind works, and your preferences, then you wouldn't be miserable. My opinion though is that society is changing too rapidly and a lot of things that seemed to be easy are near impossible these days with the evolution of the internet and cyberspace in general. It makes things like socializing and being "normal" much more difficult, but in a way, easier because being online, at least for me, is a lot easier.

I'm happy.

I'm not happy. I'm not sure how much longer I can deal with the fact I haven't seen my youngest son in 4 years. This is because of my actions in the past related to my ASD. I realise that it's my own fault but I don't think I deserve to suffer the rest of my life for this. I worry that one day he will have kids and I won't be able to see them either. I think about ending my life a lot but I'm too scared to do it but I can't see how I'll ever be happy.

I am definitely not happy. I wander between indifference and deep depression. There are many days when I want to cry, but my mind is so messed up that I can't even do that. I was raised to be ashamed of every mistake I made and every difference between me and others. But I've always been different and there's no escaping it, so I live in a constant state of guilt and self-doubt. I am frightened of everyone and everything; the whole environment I live in seems designed to hurt me, confuse me, and overwhelm my senses. I work for low pay at a lousy job because I'm afraid to explore my potential.

Generally I cope by retreating into daydreams and music. Give me those things, and some good food, and then I'm happy.

I've had many difficulties at least since 5th grade not knowing why. Last year, at the age of 50, I was diagnosed with Asperger's. At first I was relieved and thought my family would be willing to talk to me, to try to understand what's been going on all my life, but that hasn't happened. I know it won't happen - trust me on this one. So, I'm starting all over at 51 and don't know where to begin. It's so overwhelming. I'm not sure I have to energy to do this all on my own.

I can understand why some people end up being the crazy cat lady or a hermit in some isolated area.

I raised my daughter on my own - completely on my own - with no family, friends. Her dad kept getting into trouble with the law so he left when she was two. He came back to town when she was in high school and has done everything to drive a wedge between she and I. My daughter hasn't spoken to me in 6 years. I've tired everything I can think of, but I have to get on with my life such that it is. She know how to reach me if she decides to do that. Until then I'm trying to rebuild my life and I am so profoundly overwhelmed. I have often thought of suicide in the last month or so.

I did commit "social media suicide" on FB recently by deleting every post and comment I have ever made although I haven't deleted my FB account.

I wish I had some great words of wisdom, but I don't right now. I hope you can find your way.