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19 Aug 2014, 7:50 pm

I prefer to bury that time. I was suicidal. I constantly talked to myself to cope. I felt completely alone and crazy to boot. No one ever understood me or even tried. I think it was the loneliness and most misunderstood time in my life.



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25 Aug 2014, 1:51 pm

Last day of summer break tomorrow. i'll be entering my final year of HS.

I'm going to be even more alone this time around, my closest acquaintances graduated, and i'll be the only senior in Health and PE to boot. (why can't counselors or whoever gives me my damn classes do their f*****g jobs right and give me the classes i have to take when i have to take them?! :x )

oh god i miss her so much


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31 Aug 2014, 7:12 am

Congratulations on graduating! :D

I'm still new to high/secondary school, as my mom sent me to school late (I was behind for my age emotionally and physically) and it's my second week here, but so far it's been the OPPOSITE of primary school.

They're wonderful here. I'm the only diagnosed/suspected Aspie in the whole school, and the first female and second aspie to go through this school. They were so excited, they all did some short course or something on autism, and they were eager to have me start there. The students are really great, almost everyone let me sit/chat with them, and I'm never alone during free time. It's all in a different language, but they're helping me along with it. I have some really awesome teachers, and there's no teacher that I can really say I dislike.

I feel sorry for some of you guys... Highschool sounds like it sucked for a few of you. :(



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01 Sep 2014, 11:26 pm

WellThatsDantastic wrote:
Congratulations on graduating! :D

was that for me?

i'm not done for 9 more months, but thanks anyway. :)


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02 Sep 2014, 12:40 pm

Kiprobalhato wrote:
Last day of summer break tomorrow. i'll be entering my final year of HS.

I'm going to be even more alone this time around, my closest acquaintances graduated, and i'll be the only senior in Health and PE to boot. (why can't counselors or whoever gives me my damn classes do their f*****g jobs right and give me the classes i have to take when i have to take them?! :x )

oh god i miss her so much

Kiprobalhato wrote:
WellThatsDantastic wrote:
Congratulations on graduating! :D

was that for me?

i'm not done for 9 more months, but thanks anyway. :)

im glad that its your final year then. personally i feel like i f****d myself over. when me and my fammily were looking at schools i was about 13 and really really insecure about myself and who i was so none of the schools for people that were more like me (kids with aspergers with avredge to high i.q.s, me being more on the avredge side) wouldnt take me and i ended up going to a school for kids with emotional issues and more serious problems because that was the only place that would take me. not because i was violent or anything, just because i hated myself so much that it was to the point where the kids at those schools felt uncomfterable around me. thankfully i got out of that school (i think that even though the school im at right now isnt exactly hard its high school level work and i d be able to get into colledge from it, the last school not so much) but the school im in now is still mostly kids who got kicked out of there old schools rather then ones who got outplacments like i did and still people with a lot of issues and honestly i dont really conect with any of them on a basic level, i think i feel sorry for them and sometimes theyre a little scary or offputting so basicly i have the same reactions that i imagine got them sent there in the first place. im transfering back to regular school this year, if everything goes well ill be leaving by the end of this mounth but im gonna be in regular school next semester regardless. ive kept in touch with pretty much all my freinds from middle school and i still hang out with them sometimes. i made freinds who were supposed to be like me and i think they think there like me (they both have aspergers) at the last school but i always felt judged by them or like there was a certian person i was supposed to be because of my diagnosis in kind of a very shallow and stereotyped way. i told one of them i was into black girls once and he laughed at me and told me i wasnt really because i was to much of a sperg or something like that, i also wanted to be an artist and they kind of gave me the impression that that was the wrong answer to and they where always doing stuff like that or trying to get me to be more geeky or tekkie or act a certian way and not really express emotion. i just wanted to be excepted by them but i always felt like i didnt really have aspergers or that i was somehow to much like "the neurotypicals" to ever really do that and that they felt like i needed to be fixed or made more tekkie or that we were all "technical thinkers" and that a person like us simply couldnt be an artist. i thought i was supposed to feel like i belonged with them but i never really did. i think my freinds from public where all kinda weird kids but none of them hated themselves enough to do that kind of thing. in fact i feel like they always helped me be proud of who i was and the things i could do even when i was younger and i had more problems. im happy that im going back to public.



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02 Sep 2014, 2:39 pm

the-comander wrote:
Kiriae wrote:
It was the best time of my life. I finally got friends (with some of them I am friends even now) and I wasn't bullied there. In fact I was quite respected.
It was a small, private school of one group for every year. My year got 17 people (I was usually in 30-35 people groups before in schools with 5-8 groups per year that so it was a huge difference) and half of them got some issues. There was a schizophrenic girl, mentally delayed boy, a gender nonconforming boy, a few dyslexics or people with dyscalculia etc. I was feeling "at home". :D

if your counting being a queer as in the same catagory as being a scitzo or being "mentaly delayed" then i think your looking at the world wrong, i know people who are gay and i dont think theres anything wrong with them. its f*****g weird but i honestly dont think theres anything broken or morally wrong or anything about it, i really think at the end of the day its tottally fine and that it dosn't hurt anyone.

You miss the point. I don't have anything against being gender nonconformist. In fact I am one myself (I used to dress and act as a boy, it changed a little now but I still prefer stereotypically male life roles) and one of my best friends is a gay.
All I say is that I was in a class with a lot of people that were different than "average Joes" and were bullied in the past because of their differences. You won't say a boy in girly make up and heels doesn't stand out and his social life is easy, will you?

If anyone is looking at the world wrong it is you. You look down at schizophrenic and mentally delayed people. You know that Asperger is actually "mental disability"? So you look down at me! You say I am worse than a queer just because my brain works differently!
There is nothing wrong with me. I like myself and consider Asperger a part of my personality. Just the same way as I consider part of my personality that I prefer to wear pants and do stereotypically manly houseworks. Both my traits being gender non-comformist and having AS are equal. None is wrong or right.



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02 Sep 2014, 2:48 pm

Congratulations on graduating.

I loved the academic aspect of high school, except for phys-ed which I had suffer through in Grade 11 (the teacher was a loud-mouthed jerk). Socially, however, it sucked. I was the kid that people liked to poke fun at because I didn't fit into the mainstream. I wasn't just smarter than most of my peers, I had the audacity to do so while having working class parents. I didn't play sports and I engaged in strange activities like listening to shortwave broadcasts from overseas.

As a result, I didn't start dating until I went away to university. To be a weirdo like me and pine for the prettiest cheerleader was ill-advised, particularly since she was likely spoken for, often by a jock.

I thought of the town where that high school was as the armpit of the world. I spent a few days there last week. My original assessment hasn't changed.



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02 Sep 2014, 4:30 pm

Kiriae wrote:
the-comander wrote:
Kiriae wrote:
It was the best time of my life. I finally got friends (with some of them I am friends even now) and I wasn't bullied there. In fact I was quite respected.
It was a small, private school of one group for every year. My year got 17 people (I was usually in 30-35 people groups before in schools with 5-8 groups per year that so it was a huge difference) and half of them got some issues. There was a schizophrenic girl, mentally delayed boy, a gender nonconforming boy, a few dyslexics or people with dyscalculia etc. I was feeling "at home". :D

if your counting being a queer as in the same catagory as being a scitzo or being "mentaly delayed" then i think your looking at the world wrong, i know people who are gay and i dont think theres anything wrong with them. its f*****g weird but i honestly dont think theres anything broken or morally wrong or anything about it, i really think at the end of the day its tottally fine and that it dosn't hurt anyone.

You miss the point. I don't have anything against being gender nonconformist. In fact I am one myself (I used to dress and act as a boy, it changed a little now but I still prefer stereotypically male life roles) and one of my best friends is a gay.
All I say is that I was in a class with a lot of people that were different than "average Joes" and were bullied in the past because of their differences.You won't say a boy in girly make up and heels doesn't stand out and his social life is easy, will you?

If anyone is looking at the world wrong it is you. You look down at schizophrenic and mentally delayed people. You know that Asperger is actually "mental disability"? So you look down at me! You say I am worse than a queer just because my brain works differently!
There is nothing wrong with me. I like myself and consider Asperger a part of my personality. Just the same way as I consider part of my personality that I prefer to wear pants and do stereotypically manly houseworks. Both my traits being gender non-comformist and having AS are equal. None is wrong or right.

sorry about that, i just looked at how it was worded and what it was listed next to and kind of asumed it was a medical term. i did not mean to offend. that being said scizofrenia invovles halucinations and extreme parinoia, although its also notable for increasing creativity and intelectualism in certian art circles (partially due to lack of conection with reality, basicly the same way art that was made while on drugs was treated in the 60s/70s) it is still definatly a mental illness and mentally delayed sounds like a nice way of saying mentally ret*d or mentally chalenged, those are definatly mental disabilities. aspergers/high functioning autism are debatable i guess, i will say that it was enough of an issue in my childhood that i needed a one on one aid, but maybe im looking at it wrong.



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29 Oct 2014, 11:51 pm

well....hm. i got my senior portraits taken today (for the yearbook). i think they were quite nice.

after school, the photographers were in the library. i missed my internship for this!


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29 Jan 2015, 8:34 am

There are LOTS of delicious foods in high school such as, Fried Chicken skin, Sausages, Seasoned french fries, Fried oyster mushrooms, Chicken balls (no! not that ball!), Fried taro (trust me, it's awesome), plus, they're all not even a dollar! (That's what I LOVE from high school)

I have a small group of friends and they're all nice to me. (But I seldom meet 'em)

I have few awesome classmates, and the rest of it are discriminative . . .

Only few teachers understand what autism is...

But when it's time for exam, surprisingly I can collaborate with everyone during exam for sharing answers (That's what I love from high school too)

Yeah, so basically, High school has ups and downs for me...


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29 Jan 2015, 10:40 am

High school pretty much totally sucked for me.

It was during the 1970s. There was only "one type" of autism then (i.e., Kanner/"classic: autism).

I was a social outcast, though I didn't make any effort to be. Most of the "outcasts" (e.g., punk rockers, what would today be called "Emos") were actually judgmental of "true" outcasts like myself.

I had some nice teachers--but most of the kids were what I would call "intelligent idiots." Even though they had their "Aspergian" traits, many adhered to the "social norms" of high school. There were jocks, there were nerds, people hung out in cliques. That's high school!



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29 Jan 2015, 12:57 pm

Congrats on graduating! :D

High school was okay. I was a straight-A student who often made honor roll. Socially, however, I was quieter than many of my classmates, so no one except the teachers notice I was around. Teachers and other staff there are very friendly and fair to me, and if I am stressed out about something, I can always talk to them knowing that I trust them.


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29 Jan 2015, 1:35 pm

I'm currently in high school and I enjoy it, I like it because my friends are kind and funny and I like to be around them, my grades aren't that high but they're good, my classmates are good too they're nice to me and some want to be friends with me but I don't know how to form that friendship with them so I do feel disconnected from others because of that and because the whole school seems to know eachother and talk with eachother while I only talk to my friends and sometimes classmates, our principle is a dumb showoff sometimes too



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29 Jan 2015, 1:40 pm

It's okay. I get good grades. I don't have too many close friends, but most people are nice and I can talk to them sometimes.

The only part I find stressful is the classes themselves. I'm always afraid that the teacher will say something I perceive as mean to the class, like if people are talking, or if no one raises their hands for a question. I take this very personally and it causes me a lot of anxiety. I often have to plug my ears for most of a class so I won't hear these types of things. If I could, I'd stay home from school and spend all day on Wrong Planet :D



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01 Feb 2015, 6:31 pm

High School sucked. Big time. I mean, way, way too many people. Too much noise. Bullies...


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