Do you miss someone right now?

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I miss an unrequited love that lives far from me, cut off communication with me early this month and wants nothing to do with me anymore.
I daydream that we'll meet again in a few years, and hopefully move past the issues we had.
I want to move on, but all I want is him, even though I know he'll pull off the same dishonest crap as before and act like he's doing me a favour.
This is miserable.

I miss having someone there, Ive only had 4 proper girlfriends and always broke up cos I never really loved them. I could never tell them I love them cos I couldn't say it and mean it and I cant blatantly lie about it. Its been around 15 years since I had a girlfriend and I really feel like Ive left it too late now cos I never had much confidence and I have far less now I'm older and uglier and pretty depressed. The loneliness is killing me but I'm no good at meeting people and socialising in general so its like a vicious circle.

Two actually.

My bestfriend, we met in a FWB type arrangement that got complicated as our friendship developed, and eventually tried to drop the benefits. This just lead to us hurting each other as romantic feelings grew awkwardly for both of us. I found out through a friend that he had started seeing someone new, and in hopes of maintaining a relaxed friendship I also stated seeing someone. Now he is single, and despite the fact that we talk all day everyday, he insists all feelings are gone, and refuses to see me. I've seen him 6 times this year, including casual run-ins. We live only 10 minutes apart, and have a close mutual friend.
I miss hanging out, and being relaxed. Now all I can think is why wont he see me? Is it my fault, because I'm still into him? Or am I really only any good to him as a text message pen Pal? Whatever it is, it's not the same between us and I would do anything for him to want to see me. It's okay when he drinks, he even wants me to meet his friends, but afterwards he can retreat for days. I miss him so much it hurts like part of me is missing.

I miss my ex girlfriend. I loved her. It was my first real relationship but I knew it wasn't going to work out. I hate myself for leaving the relationship and there's not a day that goes by when I don't think about her which is why I continue to feel guilty about it. It's been a year now since we split and I have not been with someone else. A small part of me died that day.

I'm missing 4 people right now, 3 of them dead. 1st is my great grandma or Mamaw on my mom's side who passed away back in April of 2006, 2 months after me, my mom, and my sister had visited her and 2 months before my little brother was born. 2nd is my sibling of unknown gender that my mom miscarried back in 2007 or 2008, I can't remember. 3rd is my grandma on my dad's side who succumbed to Stage 4 Lung Cancer a year ago after smoking for nearly 60 years. 4th is a girl who I met at a convention this past April and was one of the special guests. She's still alive and well in Indiana but I really miss her right now. It was even worse about 2 months ago when she was going through a particularly hard time. I was on her Twitter page one day when I saw the tweets she had posted. Basically she does voice acting which her parents viewed as frivolous and they told her that she needed to get an actual job and get out of their house. All this time she was under the impression that she had been nothing but a disappointment to them and she said that she was scared that they were going to kick her out. Knowing she was scared made me feel scared for her, especially knowing how kindhearted and cheery she typically is. I stayed up for hours just unable to fall asleep and I didn't sleep until after I had taken a shot of Sailor Jerry to calm myself down. My heart was beating up into my throat. All that time I wished that there was something that I could do. If it were up to me I would've dropped everything and flown out to Indiana just to be there to help her through that hard time, but I didn't have hardly any money to fly out for one thing and I had no idea where in Indiana she lived for another not to mention trying to figure out hotel arrangements. So instead I decided to pray for her every day for a month. She seems to be doing much better now and she's going to be at the convention again next April. When I see her there, I'm going to serenade her with an original song that I wrote about when we had first met complete with guitar expressing my feelings for her. I'm positive that she'll love it.

NOPE!! ! I'm alone and I'm in peace.

I miss my best friend/potential lover. We Skyped last night, and it just made me want to see him again that much more.

I really miss my boyfriend.
We started dating in 2005, and actually "met" online... which is good because even though we live about a thirty minute walk from each other, now, [maybe three miles] and are both near public transportation we don't get to see each other very often at all lately. We are both often not feeling well physically so I really miss him much of the time.

We broke up for a little over a year a couple years ago because we were so overwhelmed by our own problems and couldn't really even be friends, it was too hard. I tried "dating" but every one else sucks. He's my best friend- even when I had no contact he was my best friend. We started talking again and realized we wanted to try again and it totally made sense and could dope with our own s**t again and we have figured out how to not get to that place again and now I miss him evn more when I can't see him.

He's pretty much the only person i don't have to work at to be around. The whole... oxytocin thing... he literally helps my physical pain. It's stupid but I get this sensory calmness thing out of rubbing his beard and his voice is really soothing and he taught me to cook and not be afraid of a frying pan... I can't explain that to a lot of people because I'm 32 and I feel like an idiot.

I don't know. I feel like people don't get it because if they don't know us they think we are so oddly matched. I talk like an impulsive five year old when I get excited and have trouble controlling my volume and he tends to sit back and observe. He has a wickedly funny and inappropriate sense of humor that few people suspect and our strengths balance each other out and... it's weird because so many people talk about all these things that people want in a mate that are just extraneous? A car or money or a high status job. He literally has none of that.
he's just funny and kind and wickedly smart and has this perfectly complimentary biting sense of humor and a calming presence and... just like, at 4am when things really hurt and I'm frustrated I really just wish he was in the room.
That is literally all.

sorry. I feel a little better.

at last, no.

read my rank.

CROWNCAEN - FREE!

Yes. It has been a long time, but sometimes I miss someone I knew well on here over 6 years ago now. He still comes into my thoughts when I am walking on our common and in the Victorian cemetery. And I still regret we never got to meet.