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It gets boring... If you find a solution, please let me know...
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It gets boring... If you find a solution, please let me know... |
I will
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| Posted: Mon Sep 05, 2011 11:46 pm Post subject: |
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| I just don't think life is supposed to be like this. Sadness on one hand and fear on the other. It's not sustainable. |
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sagan
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Yep. Depression = absolutely no energy. Seems like a vicious cycle.
Do you work out? That really seems to help. Or get a hobby, something so that you are excited to run out the door in the morning.
I know, it sucks to live life with paralyzing fears. You just waste yourself not going for what you really want, being too afraid. 
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| Learn how to play an instrument or sing. Music has helped me throughout life and, now more than ever, it has been a lifeline. |
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Graelwyn
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| Quote: | Yes, I do some physical activity anyway. Nothing really... big. Hobbies yeah. Things related to music and writing and the like.
I can't take it. My family doesn't understand that mental illness is real. I can't take it. I just can't take it. They just yell and yell and I can't take it, They make me feel like nothing, they make me feel horrible. They don't understand, they've never been like this, they aren't like me, they don't understand. |
I can empathise because my family was like that with me, and can still be like that, and there is this total sense that they cannot understand me at all...hard to believe we are even blood related, and makes you feel so horribly isolated and alone.
I cannot say anything that will make that better. I will most likely end up simply estranging my family, so I don't have to deal with the hurt at all.
Too many people think you should just be able to think yourself out of it, if only it were that easy. It sounds nice, but when you try and put it into practise, it doesn't quite succeed.
All you can do is do your best to ignore the words of others, and focus on building up your self worth on your own terms, by doing the things you are good at and turning to the people who will understand you and listen.
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Oh thank you Graelwyn. That means so much I can't even tell you.
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| purchase wrote: | | Graelwyn wrote: | | Quote: | Yes, I do some physical activity anyway. Nothing really... big. Hobbies yeah. Things related to music and writing and the like.
I can't take it. My family doesn't understand that mental illness is real. I can't take it. I just can't take it. They just yell and yell and I can't take it, They make me feel like nothing, they make me feel horrible. They don't understand, they've never been like this, they aren't like me, they don't understand. |
I can empathise because my family was like that with me, and can still be like that, and there is this total sense that they cannot understand me at all...hard to believe we are even blood related, and makes you feel so horribly isolated and alone.
I cannot say anything that will make that better. I will most likely end up simply estranging my family, so I don't have to deal with the hurt at all.
Too many people think you should just be able to think yourself out of it, if only it were that easy. It sounds nice, but when you try and put it into practise, it doesn't quite succeed.
All you can do is do your best to ignore the words of others, and focus on building up your self worth on your own terms, by doing the things you are good at and turning to the people who will understand you and listen. |
Oh thank you Graelwyn. That means so much I can't even tell you. I was just as low as I could get and asked them to bring me food cause I couldn't even get out of bed and then the harassment began, yelling, yelling at me to stop crying, telling me I can help it and I'm pathetic. Oh God. Thank you. I feel like nothing living at home with them to begin with and then when I ask for something cause I really need it this horrible anger that doesn't stop comes from them. |
Comfort yourself with the thought that maybe their lack of understanding and sense of helplessness makes them fear and react with anger. Sometimes helplessness can make people angry, I have noticed in the past. I am guessing there is no way you will ever be able to move out and live away from them ?
Just remind yourself that they are somewhat more pathetic than you are, for showing such a lack of understanding and compassion.
Do your best to not react to them, and ignore their words.
And maybe find someone on here you can talk to when things get bad.
Meanwhile just work hard on building yourself up, and taking steps to getting better.
I suffer severe depression as well... not to a point i literally stay in bed, but to a point I sleep all day and don't want to go out anywhere or bother buying food or washing.
I hope you will feel better tomorrow, I really do.
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Thank you so much.
Goodnight.
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