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drgoodietwoshoes
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Posted: Mon Jun 04, 2012 3:40 pm Post subject: hiding in a hole?

Any one else feel like running away and hiding in a hole in the ground? Sometimes I daydream about this, just dropping everything and running into the woods and finding a big gigantic tree with a little den underneath to hide in like a fox. . .I usually get this feeling when I am feeling anywhere between blue and gray. . .like today. But at the end of my day dream I always realize I really hate dirt, so I wouldn't much like being in a hole. . .still on bad days I always get this urge, maybe it symbolizes a safe place. . .I don't know. . .anyone else have a similar daydream? Or anyone else picture some other place to run away too? (the whole fact that I hate dirt but still always picture hiding in a hole amuses/disturbs me) _________________ Aspie score: 137of 200 Neurotypical (non-autistic) score: 68of 200 Very likely an Aspie EQ=16/SQ=94 Extremely Systemizing AQ=38

Sweetleaf
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Posted: Mon Jun 04, 2012 4:26 pm Post subject:

I've had the urge to do that all day well or a cave, or dark corner would work to...but if I do that then I'll just feel worse probably. I have hardly been able to eat all day even though earlier I was somewhere with good food because I'm just extra on edge today...and I guess feeling anxious interferes with eating by making things hard to digest and causing nausea. are you typically anxious when you get this urge...or its just a general thing you visualize doing for no specific reason? _________________ It's like alice in wonderland except, my names not alice and this is the real world not a dream.

redrobin62
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Posted: Mon Jun 04, 2012 4:26 pm Post subject:

<----- Loves dirt. All the fairy tales I've written had the woods as their basic setting. I guess that's my way of escaping reality. _________________ If you think he's eloquent now just wait till he's sober! Remember, bullies aren't just in schoolyards. His blog: http://seattlewordsmith.wordpress.com/

Joe90
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Posted: Mon Jun 04, 2012 4:34 pm Post subject:

I don't feel I want to run away and hide in a hole. I just feel so scared of the big world out there that I just want to hide away in my room and not have to come out and socialise out in public. It's the Queen's Jubilee week-end here in the UK and there are parties and concerts going on, and I feel I don't want to be part of any of them. I prefer to just watch it on TV. Lucky for me my mum is not Aspie but is a social phobe, so she stays in with me. Well, my brother is not an Aspie nor a social phobe, but he still can't be bothered to go out and join these parties. So I suppose parties aren't for everyone. _________________ Real gender: Female From: East UK Age: 23

drgoodietwoshoes
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Posted: Mon Jun 04, 2012 4:39 pm Post subject:

Sweetleaf wrote:

are you typically anxious when you get this urge...or its just a general thing you visualize doing for no specific reason?

oh definitely anxious. . .definitely anxious. . .now that I know i have AS I'm pretty sure I am overstimulated. . .I got some mildly bad news this morning and today was very busy, and there is this evil woman who works down the hall from me who sets everyone on-edge, and I have to travel out of town on a business trip this week (I hate traveling!!!). Yep, I am very on-edge. . .like I'm on the verge of a panic attack (but I don't get panic attacks). Like I'm stuck in flight mode. . .luckily I can still eat (well actually i eat at the same place nearly everyday so the routine is very soothing to me).
I'll feel better once I get home I'm sure. I hope.
I hope you can come down from the edge soon too.
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Sweetleaf
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Posted: Mon Jun 04, 2012 4:45 pm Post subject:

drgoodietwoshoes wrote:

Sweetleaf wrote:

are you typically anxious when you get this urge...or its just a general thing you visualize doing for no specific reason?

Yeah then I certainly know what you are talking about...I do get panic attacks but luckily it doesn't always reach that level. But yeah I have Generalized Anxiety and PTSD so I'm pretty much always in on edge mode except when I become mentally and physically exhausted from it in which case I end of feeling numb and lethargic which feeds my depression. Anyways anxiety disorders are not fun...I hope you feel better when you get home sometimes returning to your safe zone(hopefully your home is like that for you) can be calming.

I would say try to relax for the rest of the day if you can...because stress usually makes that sort of thing worse, which is annoying since life has stress in it.
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drgoodietwoshoes
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Posted: Mon Jun 04, 2012 4:53 pm Post subject:

Sweetleaf wrote:

But yeah I have Generalized Anxiety and PTSD so I'm pretty much always in on edge mode. . .
. . .which is annoying since life has stress in it.

Yeah, I was diagnosed with GAD 8 years ago and have been through a string of anti-depressents. They usually work for a year or two and then either depression creeps in or anxiety. . .usually depression though. . .I was planning on talking to my doc when I see him in a couple of weeks anyways about the whole AS thing. . .I'm thinking about weaning off all of the meds except for one and trying behavioral therapy instead.
Are you, or have you been medicated? SSRIs improved my life dramatically when I was about your age. . .I just think I should have gotten more therapy (or have therapy specifically targeting AS problems) after getting my medication so I wouldn't have to be stuck on it the rest of my life. .

Sweetleaf
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Posted: Mon Jun 04, 2012 6:06 pm Post subject:

drgoodietwoshoes wrote:

Sweetleaf wrote:

But yeah I have Generalized Anxiety and PTSD so I'm pretty much always in on edge mode. . .
. . .which is annoying since life has stress in it.

I tried Prozac a bit before I became 21...and it did not work well at all, it basically increased my anxiety, screwed with my emotions and eventually I was hearing people whispering about me and freaking out it was almost like psychotic symptoms. So I threw the rest away and now I am afraid of SSRIs. But yeah if I had the ptsd treated sooner it might not have gotten as bad. I think more of a sedative type drug would work better than SSRIs. if I had to take a prescription though I personally prefer smoking a specific herb but of course I can't do that in public if I start having a panic attack due to the legality so there are some issues with it there other wise its calming.

I don't advise that for everyone though, just saying that's what I do for now.
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SilkySifaka
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Posted: Mon Jun 04, 2012 6:33 pm Post subject: Re: hiding in a hole?

drgoodietwoshoes wrote:

Any one else feel like running away and hiding in a hole in the ground? Sometimes I daydream about this, just dropping everything and running into the woods and finding a big gigantic tree with a little den underneath to hide in like a fox. . .I usually get this feeling when I am feeling anywhere between blue and gray. . .like today. But at the end of my day dream I always realize I really hate dirt, so I wouldn't much like being in a hole. . .still on bad days I always get this urge, maybe it symbolizes a safe place. . .I don't know. . .anyone else have a similar daydream? Or anyone else picture some other place to run away too?

(the whole fact that I hate dirt but still always picture hiding in a hole amuses/disturbs me)

Yes, I feel like that a lot. Often when I am in a situation I can't cope with I have an overwhelming urge to just get up and run away and then hide somewhere. I wouldn't really like to be in a hole, I don't like dirt either. I just want to be alone somewhere quiet. I have a big event coming up next month, and I've started to feel the running away urge already.

questor
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Posted: Mon Jun 04, 2012 6:44 pm Post subject: Hiding in a hole

I guess I've been doing that for over 6 1/2 years. I now live alone, and rarely go out, partly due to other health problems, and partly due to not being very social. I am not a misanthrop/ anti social, just non social. I am a very introverted, hermit type person, so living alone suits me fine.

NTAndrew
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Posted: Mon Jun 04, 2012 7:46 pm Post subject:

drgoodietwoshoes wrote:

Sweetleaf wrote:

But yeah I have Generalized Anxiety and PTSD so I'm pretty much always in on edge mode. . .
. . .which is annoying since life has stress in it.

SSRIs will often work for a couple of years and then gradually become less effective. Then you either switch meds or go off meds entirely for a couple of months, and when you start again they will work as well as they did before...for a few years.

I feel like isolating myself sometimes. I have to force myself to do things sometimes, and that usually makes me feel better to be out and about and interacting with people. This past weekend I joined a group of friends at a Scottish Games. It was about and hour and a half drive away, so I got the chance to be alone before and after, and that really helps.

Matt62
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Posted: Mon Jun 04, 2012 7:49 pm Post subject:

I use to daydream about living in a cave. Or on a deserted island, either one. The key was being ALONE not so much as hidden. Though that certainly helped! LOL Matthew

FishStickNick
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Posted: Mon Jun 04, 2012 8:54 pm Post subject:

I can't say I want to hide in a literal hole, but I have wanted to hide under my desk on a couple of occasions today...

btbnnyr
Rabbit In Cat's Clothing
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Posted: Mon Jun 04, 2012 9:11 pm Post subject:

I have always wanted to live in an underground bunker. I saw a house for sale in Washington state. It looked like a normal house, but there was a multi-story underground bunker under it.

oxjox
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Posted: Mon Jun 04, 2012 11:19 pm Post subject:

MULTI-STORY!! I sincerely wish that one day I will have my own underground tunnel system. Or at the very least a MULTI-STORY bunker. Oh man, I want to see that.

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