Any guidance here ?

wingcross · Emu Egg Joined: Jul 08, 2007 Posts: 3

I am now 28. I recently self diagnosed myself and a major suspect in asperger. I havent seen any doc yet on this.

I have taken the test from
http://www.rdos.net/eng/Aspie-quiz.php
and the score shows that i am a most likely an aspie.

I broke with my two of my ex recently and I am pretty frustrated. I just dun understand what they want. No, I am not coming here for relationship advices. But it seems aspie (ppl with asperger) have such problem throughout their life. I just want to have ordinary life.

I realized a few things but i am not sure if this is the place i should share it out but I cannot hide it anymore.

When I was small, i always think i am special. I did amazing things for my classmates. Creating games. Paper games. And then I memorizing every single countries with its capital is one example. I was the best among them. That time I was 8 years old. When I reach 9 years old, I finishes all the exercises in the Math text books. And I did it twice without any mistakes and error (no copying too).

The teacher was frustrated with me too, not sure what to do with me, but I am the quiet type. My classmates get to dislike me as I was different from them. they just dun like me. Reason ? Unknown.

Then as I grew older, I realized this as well, whenever I got cut or injured, I just don't know about it until I see it or I notice there is some dry blood on my shirt or elsewhere. Even its a deep wound. I hardly feel the pain. All this is like a curse. Sad

Later on, as I moved on, maybe 16. I starting to have this thing. Deja Vu ? I am not sure. Its like I can see partially for a few seconds but I would stand there for some time looking out at emptiness. Was it intuition ? Its not like when i want to see it, I see it. But I see it when my life is in danger or threatened.

Pls bear with me, if I did cause some misunderstanding here. No bad intention here. I dun have a good english grade here.

Now, one of my ex know about this far seeing ability. She experienced with me and fear me deeply.

Anyway, I cant discard this ability if I truly have it. So the thing is is there anyone has this sort of experiences ? Ability to see into the future maybe just for a few seconds ? I thought I was just making it up but things happen for real later on. Sometimes, I can see like I was there and sometimes, i was like getting hints. For example, if i am a christian, I told some of my friends that a new book will be introduced and guess what, The Gospel of Judas was announced that year. The things is I only know a new book will be introduced, not the name of it.

So...

could this be my hallucinations ? or my weaker mind could have make it up ? Maybe someone can help me ?

Or is there any familiar test ? All this are interupting my job, I cant focus clearly on my job.