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PsychedelicFreak
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I've just joined. I'm a 25 year old male. My name is Paul. I'm a college student double majoring in physics and computer science. I think I have Asperger's, but I am not certain of that.
I like science and mathematics. I am particularly interested in meteorology, climatology, astronomy, astrophysics, and particle physics. I am not yet an expert at any of those things, though I probably know more than most people about those topics.
I am also interested in storm chasing. I've always been fascinated by the weather.
I've been collecting coins since I was five years old and have quite a large collection now.
I decided to add another interest to my list, psychedelics. I am sure some of you probably disapprove of that. There can be some risk involved, but they are generally safe physically and the risk of freak outs/psychosis is way overblown. I have what I consider a good reason for my interest. I had a long lasting five year depression including suicide attempts that was ended immediately by my first trip. It was one of the best things to ever happen to me. I am interested in their use, potential use in psychotherapy, their pharmacology, and the experiences of other people.
I think I have Asperger's syndrome for the following reasons:
I have difficulty in any kind of social situation. I never know how to act or what to say. It seems impossible to get to know other people. I am also anxious in social situations.
I usually find any physical contact with others to be unpleasant.
I have rather restricted interests. These can be very intense when I am not depressed. When depressed, I have little interest in anything.
As I child, I usually played by myself. I've rarely had friends. I have always preferred solitary activities.
I've always been clumsy and I walk a bit differently from other people.
I may be overly sensitive to sound and touch, especially when trying to sleep. It usually takes 2 or 3 hours to fall asleep because I am bothered by feeling things touch my skin, air blowing on my hair, and every little sound I hear.
I have not been diagnosed, and do not see the point of seeing a therapist or psychiatrist for it. It is not something that can be changed. It may be in my best interest to seek treatment for the depression and anxiety. I have not done that because I do not like telling other people about myself.
I've always known I was different from other people. I was often made fun of as a kid. When I got a job, some of the other employees would call me a retard or psycho. It seems that some individuals think I am stupid just because I am different from them, but I know that is not true.
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Tim_Tex
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| Posted: Fri Jul 04, 2008 2:08 am Post subject: |
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Welcome to WP!
I have had a lifelong fascination with weather as well.
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malithion2
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| Posted: Fri Jul 04, 2008 3:09 am Post subject: |
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| Looks like wrong planet is the right place for you! |
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asplanet
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| Posted: Fri Jul 04, 2008 7:49 am Post subject: |
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Hi PsychedelicFreak welocme to the "right" planet   
While I agree you may not need a diagnosis, as it can be almost impossible to know for sure that any label is correct 100%, but its important we know and understand who we are. You do not need to be diagnosed to want to know and understand yourself fully...
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richie
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JerryHatake
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| Posted: Fri Jul 04, 2008 9:55 am Post subject: |
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Nice to meet you, Paul.  
I'm a Social Science for Education major at Mason.
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AnonymousAnonymous
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Welcome to Wrong Planet!
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reika
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Hi Paul, just wanted to say that I LOVE your avatar and than I also love quatum physics althrough I never took it in school.(I read about it incessantly.) Michio is my current favorite physicist. My daughter says the fact that I have a "favorite physicist" just shows what a true geek I am  I avoided school as much as possiable.
Anyhow welcome to WP!
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lelia
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I like your interests.
Getting treatment may not involve telling a whole lot about yourself. I went to the local treatment for poor people county mental health place and paid cash because insurance is just a hassle. For me it's ninety dollars a visit, a half hour every six or so months. The first time I went in was an hour where I told them I had been depressed for four years after a lifetime of occasional 1 year or so depressions and so I was ready for medication now. Gave a few symptoms. Mentioned enough family life to demonstrate it was not situationally based. Got put on paxil. Feelings normalized but I forgot what desire was. Did not want to do that to my husband and went back to get something else. Took effexor, good stuff. After a few years felt depression returning, reported it, and doubled the dosage. After a few more years felt myself slowing down, so on Wellbutrin as well now. About four more years and needed to double effexor again. I can double it one or two more time before I will need to switch to something else. Yes, I am addicted to the SSRI, like the diabetic is addicted to insulin. So? I do what I need to do and I found a doctor who sees that I am rational, just a person who cannot produce enough serotonin. |
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PsychedelicFreak
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Thanks for the welcome, folks.
Glad to hear from others who share some of the same interests.
Lelia:
I have tried quite a few antidepressants in the past, making sure to use most of them for at least a month to ensure they had time to take effect. None of them helped. I was attempting to self medicate, I did not seek professional help and did not tell anyone about my depression for a long time. I finally told my mother after several years.
Perhaps a professional would be able to find a more effective antidepressant. I was really bothered by the side effects of most I tried, so I would not be willing to take anything with those side effects. You say effexor was good for you, but it was one of the worst for me in terms of side effects.
I tried wellbutrin for one day, and it seemed to improve my mood within a couple of hours. The side effects frightened me, though. I got light headed several times and felt strange feelings in my head. I also heard popping or electrical sounds in my head and saw light flashes with my eyes closed. I was worried I might have a seizure or something. I was too afraid to sleep that night. I'd be afraid to try it again. I can't say that any of the others improved my mood. Perhaps the physical side effects were bad enough to keep me from feeling better.
I'm glad to hear you have found something that worked for you.
Maybe there is an effective antidepressant out their that I can tolerate. I don't need any right now, as I am not currently feeling depressed. I know it will return, it always does. |
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spudnik
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lelia
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| My goodness, you have had interesting experiences. My understanding is that one needs to try an antidepressant for at least 6 weeks because that is how long it takes for a new nerve cell to grow. My experience is that the first two weeks of most new medications is when there are the strangest effects and the most suicidal ideation. After that, things settle down. I'm fifty-five, so obviously I've learned how to cope with suicidal ideation, but it is a waste of mental time. The worst was the first two weeks of 5-HTP. Whoo, what nightmares. But it's the only thing that lets me tolerate temperatures above 55 degrees farenheight and lessens the constant, constant hunger. |
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MusicGrl23
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| Hi! Welcome to the board! |
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ironangel
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| Posted: Sun Jul 06, 2008 8:02 am Post subject: |
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welcome there paul
nice avatar you got!
| reika wrote: | Hi Paul, just wanted to say that I LOVE your avatar and than I also love quatum physics althrough I never took it in school.(I read about it incessantly.) Michio is my current favorite physicist. My daughter says the fact that I have a "favorite physicist" just shows what a true geek I am I avoided school as much as possiable.
Anyhow welcome to WP! |
quantum physics wow that's amazing!!!
time travel  |
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