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cjtut
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Location: Texas
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 Posted: Wed Jul 16, 2008 1:29 pm Post subject: does anyone ever feel like hurting themselves? |
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| I just feel like I need to punish myself for not being able to function like a regular person, by punching myself with something hard and sometimes I just think I should kill myself and then I wouldn't be a burden to other people. |
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MassuBure
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Age: 23
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| Posted: Wed Jul 16, 2008 1:37 pm Post subject: |
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I feel the same way sometimes. I mess a lot of things up, pretty constantly, especially when it comes to relationships. I feel like everyone would be a lot better off if I didn't exist to get on their nerves, or waste their time or strain their finances.
I've contemplated killing myself a few times over the years, mostly by using my car to run into sometime, hoping I'd crash hard enough to drive the engine back into the cabin and crush me. Then I would tell myself that this is stupid, and that I'd only make everyone more miserable. |
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n4mwd
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Joined: Jun 08, 2008
Posts: 667
Location: Palm Beach, FL
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| Posted: Wed Jul 16, 2008 2:17 pm Post subject: |
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| I don't have to hurt myself. There are plenty of volunteers to do that for me. Such is the life of an aspie. |
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Autisvic
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Joined: Jul 14, 2008
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Location: Around here somewhere....Let me check.
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| Posted: Wed Jul 16, 2008 2:26 pm Post subject: |
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I banged my head against a street sign post once while arguing with my ex-girlfriend. 
I freaked her out.
But she was freaking me out
by overreacting (I thought) to
something petty (I thought).
I was frustrated by not being
able to understand nor being
able to make myself understood.
After we calmed down she asked
why I did that, and I told her I
thought I was autistic, blah, blah, blah....
It was the first time I had told any body
about it. From then on I started to talk
about it more and more with others,
eventually even bringing it up with my family.
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flailure
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Location: my office
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| Posted: Wed Jul 16, 2008 2:41 pm Post subject: |
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I used to be rather brutal. I've bruised my own ribs, punched myself so hard in the stomach that I threw up, cut my forearms, beat my face, punched doors and walls, worked out to the point of serious injury, etc. I used to kick my own ass all the time but it never helped anything. I still want to at times, and really I would just love to grab a grenade, pull the pin, and hold it to my throat, but I know that it's just my depression talking and doesn't help me make it through the day.
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sim
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Joined: Apr 20, 2008
Age: 18
Posts: 637
Location: an uneven circle
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| Posted: Wed Jul 16, 2008 4:11 pm Post subject: |
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| Autisvic wrote: | I banged my head against a street sign post once while arguing with my ex-girlfriend.
I freaked her out.
But she was freaking me out
by overreacting (I thought) to
something petty (I thought).
I was frustrated by not being
able to understand nor being
able to make myself understood.
After we calmed down she asked
why I did that, and I told her I
thought I was autistic, blah, blah, blah....
It was the first time I had told any body
about it. From then on I started to talk
about it more and more with others,
eventually even bringing it up with my family. |
I've resorted to harming myself a couple of times in that same sort of situation. I didn't bring up the autistic bit, though. |
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Ashton
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Joined: Jun 10, 2008
Posts: 100
Location: Australia
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| Posted: Thu Jul 17, 2008 8:21 am Post subject: |
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I harmed myself just now. 
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Ashton
About me: Diagnosed with Asperger's aged 8. Heavily into computers and all things geeky. Possible OCD, BPD and SAD although all three undiagnosed. |
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cjtut
Hummingbird
Joined: Feb 28, 2008
Posts: 20
Location: Texas
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| Posted: Thu Jul 17, 2008 11:29 am Post subject: |
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| Well, that makes me feel better knowing I'm not the only one...I think i do it because I can't live up to the expectations of a "normal" person. And I hate myself for it, so I want to hurt me bad. |
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SIXLUCY
Phoenix
Joined: Jul 14, 2008
Age: 31
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| Posted: Thu Jul 17, 2008 11:32 am Post subject: I used |
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I used to pull my hair out
Ive slit my wrists
Ive taken one too many drug overdoses
& I spilt my knee cap in half when I kneed a metal door (idiot) |
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