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04 Feb 2012, 4:21 am

I have lots of OCD issues & I've been having issues most all my life. It's gradually been getting worse lately & I had a really bad period for a while earlier tonight where I kept rereading my old post, checking my email every couple minutes, & checking & doing other things as well. I have no clue why I HAD to do that but trying to stop myself made me anxious & I would of had a panic attack if I would of forced myself to stop. I'm in a more normal mode now.

I go through phases with some of my symptoms. I've always been picky about the way I do things(not everything but lots of different things) It's one of the reasons I'm so dependent because I try to avoid doing & learning to do certain things because I know I would have a major problem doing it in a timely manner due to my OCD. I sometimes count certain things or redo certain things over & over again for no reason at all. I used to have some unwanted dangerous thoughts to do things that scared me but that stopped years ago. I sometimes get obsessive thoughts in my head like from a conversation I had with someone or heard something from TV or something & I get hung-up on it for a bit. Sometimes I would think about something that could go wrong & it would case me to have panic attacks. I screwed-up my 1st relationship when I was 20 because I started dwelling on things that could go wrong & it caused me to have lots of panic attacks & I started being unsure of what was really going on & what wasn't. I became controlling with her & kind of lost my grip on reality & it turned into psychotic depression. I started taking Buspar about 6 months ago because I had a bad panic attack when I was in my 2nd relationship as a result of of me obsessively worrying about something. I haven't really had a panic attack since I started Buspar & my anxiety has gotten a lot better in general. I have lots of compulsions like checking my email obsessively when I can, checking my watched post here, rereading post I made over & over again for a few days after I make them. I have problems with porn because I get these thoughts in my head about something(what that something is does change) so I have to DL a bunch of vids with it & I never bother to watch most of em. The thoughts leave & delete them but shortly after I do; I get the thoughts in my head again & the cycle continues of me DLing stuff I never watch. I took medication to decrease my sex drive for a brief period because without my drive I was able to resist starting the vicious cycle with porn. But my OCD has gotten so bad recently that I start that cycle even when I'm not horny at all. The OCD issues that cause me distress are a bit better when I am obsessed with something else. The more obsessed I am; the better these issues are. t haven't been really been obsessed with anything sense me & my girlfriend broke up a couple months ago(I was severely obsessed with her) & I think this is why my OCD is getting worse now.

I researched OCD a bit & I don't think therapy would be affective for me because my OCD is highly integrated with lots of different aspects of my life instead of being a limited number of issues that have root-cusses that could be addressed. I got counseling years ago for different things & it was not beneficial to me at all. I find posting about things to be much more helpful. I tried lots of psych meds out to for different things including my OCD & none of them has ever helped my OCD at all except for Anafranil but Anafranil only seemed to help for the 1st couple days I was on it(I started on a low dose) but I quit taking it after a week because it made me very shaky. The list of other psych meds I tried that I remember off the top on my head are Lexapro, Paxil, Prozac, Cymbalta, Zoloft, Zyprexa, Geodon, Risperdal, Lithium, Remeron, Klonopin, Xanax, Abilify, Pristiq. I try distracting myself from these thoughts & resisting these urges but that causes me to get anxious. The only thing I can think of to help is to get another girlfriend so I can be obsessed with her so these other OCD issues will be better. Or I could try more meds but I'm not sure what else to try. Does anyone ahve any suggestions :?:


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17 Feb 2012, 8:54 pm

Can you think of a goal to set yourself that you could focus on? Something that you might feel positive about, even if you were to become a little obssessed. Achieving a goal can increase self-esteem. Perhaps learning a new skill.


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21 Feb 2012, 7:08 pm

nick007 wrote:
I have lots of OCD issues & I've been having issues most all my life. It's gradually been getting worse lately & I had a really bad period for a while earlier tonight where I kept rereading my old post, checking my email every couple minutes, & checking & doing other things as well. I have no clue why I HAD to do that but trying to stop myself made me anxious & I would of had a panic attack if I would of forced myself to stop. I'm in a more normal mode now.

I go through phases with some of my symptoms. I've always been picky about the way I do things(not everything but lots of different things) It's one of the reasons I'm so dependent because I try to avoid doing & learning to do certain things because I know I would have a major problem doing it in a timely manner due to my OCD. I sometimes count certain things or redo certain things over & over again for no reason at all. I used to have some unwanted dangerous thoughts to do things that scared me but that stopped years ago. I sometimes get obsessive thoughts in my head like from a conversation I had with someone or heard something from TV or something & I get hung-up on it for a bit. Sometimes I would think about something that could go wrong & it would case me to have panic attacks. I screwed-up my 1st relationship when I was 20 because I started dwelling on things that could go wrong & it caused me to have lots of panic attacks & I started being unsure of what was really going on & what wasn't. I became controlling with her & kind of lost my grip on reality & it turned into psychotic depression. I started taking Buspar about 6 months ago because I had a bad panic attack when I was in my 2nd relationship as a result of of me obsessively worrying about something. I haven't really had a panic attack since I started Buspar & my anxiety has gotten a lot better in general. I have lots of compulsions like checking my email obsessively when I can, checking my watched post here, rereading post I made over & over again for a few days after I make them. I have problems with porn because I get these thoughts in my head about something(what that something is does change) so I have to DL a bunch of vids with it & I never bother to watch most of em. The thoughts leave & delete them but shortly after I do; I get the thoughts in my head again & the cycle continues of me DLing stuff I never watch. I took medication to decrease my sex drive for a brief period because without my drive I was able to resist starting the vicious cycle with porn. But my OCD has gotten so bad recently that I start that cycle even when I'm not horny at all. The OCD issues that cause me distress are a bit better when I am obsessed with something else. The more obsessed I am; the better these issues are. t haven't been really been obsessed with anything sense me & my girlfriend broke up a couple months ago(I was severely obsessed with her) & I think this is why my OCD is getting worse now.

I researched OCD a bit & I don't think therapy would be affective for me because my OCD is highly integrated with lots of different aspects of my life instead of being a limited number of issues that have root-cusses that could be addressed. I got counseling years ago for different things & it was not beneficial to me at all. I find posting about things to be much more helpful. I tried lots of psych meds out to for different things including my OCD & none of them has ever helped my OCD at all except for Anafranil but Anafranil only seemed to help for the 1st couple days I was on it(I started on a low dose) but I quit taking it after a week because it made me very shaky. The list of other psych meds I tried that I remember off the top on my head are Lexapro, Paxil, Prozac, Cymbalta, Zoloft, Zyprexa, Geodon, Risperdal, Lithium, Remeron, Klonopin, Xanax, Abilify, Pristiq. I try distracting myself from these thoughts & resisting these urges but that causes me to get anxious. The only thing I can think of to help is to get another girlfriend so I can be obsessed with her so these other OCD issues will be better. Or I could try more meds but I'm not sure what else to try. Does anyone ahve any suggestions :?:


While you have obsessions and compulsions, your issues do not sound quite like OCD, and perhaps that's why the traditional OCD treatments don't work very well for you.

Do you perhaps fit the criteria for OCPD better?



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21 Feb 2012, 8:15 pm

Chronos wrote:
While you have obsessions and compulsions, your issues do not sound quite like OCD, and perhaps that's why the traditional OCD treatments don't work very well for you.

Do you perhaps fit the criteria for OCPD better?

I was diagnosed with OCPD as well as OCD(one report said treatment-refractory OCD) but from what I understand OCPD is about being in control of others where as OCD is about anxiety. I'm not really contorting for the most part except in a relationship; especially my 1st one but that was due to extreme anxiety & panic attacks. Me & my mom both think my dad has OCPD because he's kinda controlling of things, takes charge, & is picky about how me & my mom do things; where as I don't care how others do things unless I'm. involved with it & then I kind of let others take charge of me & I tend to kind of worry that there will be a problem. I think some of my OCD issues are a learned thing. I'm almost postie I have AS(thou the psychs thought I had 10+ other things instead) & I also have learning problems & physical disabilities that others weren't really aware of no one really understood; & I faced lots of problems with others & life as a result. I make/made lots of mistakes, I've had others criticize & question how I do things a lot. I think maybe I developed a fear deep down of screwing up, being blamed for things, getting in trouble ect; & I developed obsessions & compositions as a result. Not sure if this makes mush sense.
I have had gone through some phases where I had classic stereotypical OCD themes & issues related to them; like I would think very dangerous thoughts that really freaked me out when I had em & I was afraid I would carry them out. I quit having them when I got in my 1st relationship & became obsessed with her instead.

I stumbled across some stuff about an anticonvulsant that has helped some with treatment-resistant OCD. I have a tremor disorder that lots of psych meds I tried aggravated; I tried treatment for the tremors before but it's been a few years since I last tried. The tremors haven't been much of a problem for me lately but the anticonvulsant is occasionally used to treat them so I think it's worth trying but I'm not sure what I'll try next(if anything) if it doesn't help my OCD stuff


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22 Feb 2012, 1:43 am

nick007 wrote:
Chronos wrote:
While you have obsessions and compulsions, your issues do not sound quite like OCD, and perhaps that's why the traditional OCD treatments don't work very well for you.

Do you perhaps fit the criteria for OCPD better?

I was diagnosed with OCPD as well as OCD(one report said treatment-refractory OCD) but from what I understand OCPD is about being in control of others where as OCD is about anxiety. I'm not really contorting for the most part except in a relationship; especially my 1st one but that was due to extreme anxiety & panic attacks. Me & my mom both think my dad has OCPD because he's kinda controlling of things, takes charge, & is picky about how me & my mom do things; where as I don't care how others do things unless I'm. involved with it & then I kind of let others take charge of me & I tend to kind of worry that there will be a problem. I think some of my OCD issues are a learned thing. I'm almost postie I have AS(thou the psychs thought I had 10+ other things instead) & I also have learning problems & physical disabilities that others weren't really aware of no one really understood; & I faced lots of problems with others & life as a result. I make/made lots of mistakes, I've had others criticize & question how I do things a lot. I think maybe I developed a fear deep down of screwing up, being blamed for things, getting in trouble ect; & I developed obsessions & compositions as a result. Not sure if this makes mush sense.
I have had gone through some phases where I had classic stereotypical OCD themes & issues related to them; like I would think very dangerous thoughts that really freaked me out when I had em & I was afraid I would carry them out. I quit having them when I got in my 1st relationship & became obsessed with her instead.

I stumbled across some stuff about an anticonvulsant that has helped some with treatment-resistant OCD. I have a tremor disorder that lots of psych meds I tried aggravated; I tried treatment for the tremors before but it's been a few years since I last tried. The tremors haven't been much of a problem for me lately but the anticonvulsant is occasionally used to treat them so I think it's worth trying but I'm not sure what I'll try next(if anything) if it doesn't help my OCD stuff


There is OCD and there are obsessive compulsive like traits. One of the changes being made to the DSM is to include a category for those with these traits which don't constitute actual OCD but are still problematic. It's possible that you have OCD which flairs up on occasion, as well as these other traits which are not OCD but are related in some way.

OCD originates, in part, from the same area of the brain that many movement disorders do. Perhaps your obsessive compulsive traits are related to your tremor disorder.



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01 Mar 2012, 9:32 am

Hi nick007,
Nice to meet you.

I have asperger's and ocd. Similar to you.
Being male, i can relate with your situation.

Have you tried fluvoxamine/faverin/luvox for you ocd?

Like you i went through a whole host of meds (due to denial of autism and also depression),
But now i'm back on fluvoxamine (the other names for it are faverin and luvox).

Hope to hear from you soon! :)

Cheers,
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