Curse or Gift

Grebels · Toucan Joined: Mar 06, 2012 Posts: 270

I am at the bottom of the learning curve when it comes to things like Asperger's Syndrome. I only have my own experience for the most part, so would like to open this up for discussion. You tell me how this little bit of writing fits you, or not.

Asperger's and ADDS: are they a curse or a gift? Most people tend to grin and say, “Lost in your own world, are you.” Yes, we are, and at least life becomes bearable. If we get into a computer game it is apparently worse, well according to some people. A whole wonderful world has been created for us to explore and give excitement. I suppose it has to be frustrating for our loved ones trying to talk to somebody who is so engrossed as not to hear a word. It can be a problem as computer games are great entertainment, demanding certain skills, but not productive. Getting lost in our own thoughts can be even worse. The road to negativity is the easy one, It requires no great effort.

However, it is when we can harness our mind and whole being to that one thing there is a focus, like the sun through a magnifying glass. It is the place where genius flowws. I make no claims to be a genius myself but can say I often write a story which seems to have already happened in another place. I am simply recording what I see in my mind's eye. There are characters who even have individual body language. I have shown this writing to trained readers who tell me they enjoyed the writing that easily flowed, from mind to fingers, but at the point where I began trying they no longer took enjoyment from it.

As a portrait painter I can say something similar happens. The complete focus of energy gives that extra power. With it comes the ease of execution and brushwork that denotes the professional artist.

From what I have read theoretical scientists may be very much the same. One great British genius Paul Dirac was practically mute at times, yet his discoveries placed Physics on a higher level.

Do you see what I am trying to say? Things like Asperger's may be very painful, but let us look on the positive side and appreciate the giftedness. Sure, I am very easily hurt. I can feel the harshness of people's words at times, yet then can be sensitive to their hurts. Maybe we have grown up with such an ability and never think about it. I may feel an atmosphere in a place, although I am not always sure how this is useful.

I am trying to get my head round this thing. When I was young I not only felt lonely in the crowd, but had a much deeper despair of being cut-off from the world around me. Call it a spiritual thing if you like. Healing came later, with the possibility of being connected up.

Theories of consciousness are now becoming prevalent, which suggest thought may come from outside the brain. My own feeling is this may be true. Is it possible that people with conditions such as Asperger's and ADDS are much more receptive to that world of thought. Growing up without he ability of verbal expression may have thrown us the other way, to have great gifts, maybe creativity or perhaps as a mathematician.

Whatever, it was a great encouragement for me to realise that what I had seen as so difficult was also the reason for the various gifts I had. I'm not sure that realisation has made me more acceptable to other people, but do know it has helped me to accept myself.

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